portosicuro's Journal

Looks like I'm slowly but surely leaving DS. I just don't need it anymore. I talk to my friends about everything. Update?

Shivers has become my spy. Turk is somehow more open with her than with me. This pisses me off, but she says not to take it that way. Since she is one of my closest friends, I trust her. He told her what I KNEW. I knew why he wasn't moving forward with me. I don't really care that he said it vicariously through Shivers. He said that he doesn't want to be in a relationship with someone from school- considering the size of the school and the well-known curse of Skyview romances. He's also nervous about a relationship because of his shitty old one. Plus, with his grandfather's death, he doesn't 'need more drama'. So far, it's not just me.

SuperSenior and I have gotten really close. She's the friend I've always wanted. We hang out in the classes we have together and meet up on the weekend to gossip about everyone there. Then we use any money our parents gave us for food and spend it on junk food. We talk during movies, drive around mindlessly until we are completely lost, talk about our problems, sing songs and quote scrubs. It's like a dream. She's had depression like I did, so she gets that. And since she goes to my school, she really gets when I talk about Turk or other kids there. She makes me laugh all the time.

Old friends are popping up. Not the bad ones, just mediocre characters in my life.

Halloween's coming up. That will be the one year anniversary of my first hospitalization. I've come really far. This time last year, I wanted to run away from home; Now, I couldn't be happier.

My new therapist is ok, but I don't really know her yet. I feel a little weird talking with her, like she'll judge me. But she's good enough to make me wanna stick with her.

My sister RP and I are becoming the best buddies we used to be. I don't feel to comfortable talking to her about a lot of things, but I love being around her.

I'm having my first big test in less than a year and I don't remember what it was or how I studied for it. The gang is planning a study party(that what they called it), so whenever it is, I'm going. It sounds legit and Dy's coming so I think we're studying, as opposed to them smoking pot and Dy and I reading comics books. That actually sounds fun, but I need a good grade in this class. I'm the farest behind, everyone in the class.

I finally feel like I belong there. I joke around with the teachers, I know where everything is and everyone knows my name and at least one fact about me. 

I'm thinking of getting a camcorder for christmas and videoing all my future journals. I'll be more likely to talk instead of type.

Looking back at some old poetry, I'm MUCH better than I remember. If I have enough concetration, I'll start again and READ. I have no concetration! But I manage to get honor roll and a 4.0 gpa.

I've been named the hockey MVP. I'm always picked first. I scored three goals in a row today(I thought I would pass out).

There's a lot more, but I can't think of it. Basically, everything's going well.