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LolaO 
1:21am, September 6, 2009
I have been in a lot of pain because there seems to be a war in my head. Things are much more chaotic than usual as Lisa seesm to be gathering strength and she is capable of really making big trouble as she will take money to have sex. Lisa almost got me us in trouble once when she was nearly arrested for prostitution and we have been tryng very hard to control her since then and not let her out.
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I can't relate to having names for these different voices in my own head.....but I can certainly relate to the war going on in there. We all have them. What I was told during my moment of darkness is, "Don't listen to the lies. Keep praying fiercely for the truth as they come." It is now that God is holding you, Lola.
Praying for you, and thinking of you as you walk through this struggle.
SherrollW
I understand how hard irt is sometimes. I have a little one renee who can cause a lot of trouble for me in similar ways to Lisa for you. I try to keep her under control, but sometimes it is bery hard. I sorry i cant really offer much advice just letting you know that I understand. M
lasthopem
I don't directly deal with this myself cause when I have conflicting feelings, thoughts, emotions - as we all do - I am aware of all the thoughts all the time. I think this probably makes it easier to deal with. But a person i know does deal with it and she finds meditation and journaling helful in order to communicate all these thoughts and process them effectively. She writes of how she only wants the best for her body and it's system and how hurting the body benifits no one. It at least keeps her from dangerous activity. She also reads what is written so she is aware of what is going on with the parts of the system she is not always aware of and deals with any concerns expressed. Then she can try to engage in activities that fulfill all parts of her system in as healthy ways as possible. This seems to satisfy to some extent all of the system and keep down hostile, hurtful, dangerous situations. Works for her.
terrys
I'm so sorry your going through this. Just keep fighting you are the stronger one and you can win.
Maryca
be strong... stay strong... and we are all pulling for u...
we know that sometimes it's hard to think straight and be WHO U WANT TO BE...
but ur strong and you can fight this...
hang in there beautiful
Shantel
I am another who does not experience things like this, with the named personalities at war in my head, so all I can offer is sympathy, and an attempt at understanding, and love.
Does Lisa have a trigger? Does she feel a need to come out at certain times, to "protect you from something you fear, intimacy, maybe? Through readings, I have a very basic understanding of your concern. Are you getting professional help to integrate the personalities?
I think terrys gave an excellent idea.
I am here for you, if it helps. I believe you are strong enough to help Lisa see that her habits and desires help neither of you. (yes, I treat her as an individual perosnilty in my mind, since she is one in yours. Try to stay strong, and listen to the underlying message in Lisa's presence. Pray if it helps you, and affirm the part of you that you ish to be the most.
LindaPoet
a WAR GOING ON IN YOUR HEAD, hummm.. think about this. Who wins at war? No body. The only person who can win is the person that is stronger to stop it. And that is you. You need to be strong and stand up for yourself and say no more of this. Your body is the only thing you have that was given to you. Pray, start a writting a journal, and be aware of what is going around you. My best reguards to you...
momacat
I too, cannot relate to thoughts of this nature; howver, please hang in there and keep reaching out to us so that we can listen to you and comfort in a way that we can and in a way that can hopefully ease your mind for a little bit. Pray! Pray! Pray!
TynyOne
You are not crazy. You are just experiencing some difficult problems. Keep seeing your doctor, and have faith in yourself.
JimK
I do not have any insight to multiple personalities.
Therefore, I can only offer my sympathy to you in your very difficult time of inner turmoil.
I liked terrys idea of journal to your multiples and meditation.
If you have a doctor you like or if you are going back to the hospital where you interacted with the male shrink in the ER situation...keep going.
With you having a strong connection with a therapist, that will help you heal. It will also be helpful in dealing with Lisa and her directions.
Take care.
I wish you well.
GoodGod
omg im sorry this is happening 2 u, i dont have the same problem myself so i dont know what 2 say 2 advise apart from seeing a therapist regularly, tell them everything, could u take a medication 2 help keep lisa at bay? just hold on in there sweetheart, your strong enough
char1
Keep strong Lola, trie to not think about the others at war, keep seeing your Dr and tell them all about it hon. Hope your feeling better really soon. Hugs Sue
SueOz
Lola i am sorry you are going through this difficult time.Keep seeing your Dr.Maybe talk with your DR and tell them what is happening to you.my heart goes out to you hon............
RainyDey
Try and talk to your doctor about this, or work on what triggers Lisa to feel like this., If you can find out why you might be able to stop it before it happens xx
ScaredandScarred
you are not at peace with yourself. when you find that peace in yourself, lisa will become a better part of you, for you. do you get that?
livingdeadkitty
hi lola, i too agree with terry's suggestion, could be very beneficial without a doubt. there is obviously lack of understanding of feelings and thoughts between personalities involving the extensive depth of your experience you have had to tolerate in order to survive. with each personality there is a conflict of some confusion to who you feel you really are. undoubtabley, your horrific turmoil still demonstrates your struggle to be free from your past. somehow your barriers need to slowly come down from all personalities slowly n build a trust cus i'm sure your there is much misunderstanding going on. your therapist will help you enormously with this dilemma,you just have to stay strong my friend and trust your therapist to help you unblock your path to finding who you really are. stay safe lola,x
ravindj
I'm sorry for the turmoil that you are in.You look like a beautiful person and I wish you peace.Sometimes the path to healing can be painful,but I wish you all the luck in the world.
Val_Mc
Whoa!!!
cewidder
Hi Lola, I'm sorry that you are going thru so much. I am not in the situation that you're in so all I too can do is sympathise. I think everyone else has given great advice and I urge you to try it out. Keep strong and hang in there.
ItsJustMe
there is a multiple personality place here you would be welcomed,that we would understand.
Desolit