LolaO

Open Cerebral Palsy

Lindsey, one of my alters, is a spastic quad because of CP.All 4 limbs, her back, neck, and face are all very very spastic.

Open Self-Injury

Sometimes I cut to fel in control of some small part of my life, sometimes to help me feel less empty and dead inside, and sometimes to block my flashbacks of having been incested hundreds of times when I was a kid.

Treatments

Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful

Outpatient Treatment Program Somewhat Helpful

Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful

Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

I was diagnosed with this when I started to cut and make suicide attempts as a teen. I'm no longer actively suicidal but think about it a lot. I still cut, especially to block flashbacks of my being incested.

Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

I was repeatedly incested as a child and now I have horrible PTSD with flashbacks triggered many times every day. Cutting myself and smoking way too much weed are the only things I have found that block the flashbacks.

Treatments

EMDR Not Working

EMDR made things a lot worse

Open Rape

I was raped many times as a child and as ayoung teen it was actually incest and I was afraid to tell anyone about it.

Treatments

Marijuana Working / Worked

Heavy smoking blocks my flashbacks.

Psychotherapy Not Working

Never helped no matter how many times I tried

Open Sexual Abuse

I was incested by my grandfather and uncle more times than I can count as a child and as a young teen. I now have PTSD, DID/MPD and SI because of what happened.

Treatments

Group Therapy Not Working

Never helped.

Open Bisexuality

My alters Linda, Lisa and I are all bisexual.

Open Multiple Personalities

IThere are 5 of us, Lola, Linda. Lucy, Lindsey, and Lisa. Of course I may become aware of others in the future. We all are wheelchair users Lisa has never learned to walk and is also deaf and bisexual. She sometimes takes money to have sex. Linda is a bisexual paraplegic with Asperger Syndrome. Lindsey is a spastic quad with severe CP who is transgendered. Lucy is a lesbian with MS. Because of the MS she is in a wheelchair and has lost her sight to the point of being legally blind.

Open Paralysis

All of my alters have paralysis in one form or another. Linda is a T-10 paraplegic and has been so since she was a kid. Lucy has severe MS that keeps her in a w/chair,Lindsay is a spastic quad because of cerebral palsy, and Lisa never learned 2 walk as a kid but the docs have never figured out why.

Open Multiple Sclerosis (MS)
Type: Relapsing-remitting MS

Lucy, one of my alters, has advanced MS and is legally blind from it. Her balance is so terible that she has 2 b strapped into her w/chair or she will fall from it. Her speech is VERY thick and ppl have a very hard time understanding what she says.

Treatments

Acceptance Working / Worked

The only thing left.

Avonex Not Working

Betaseron Not Working

Copaxone Not Working

Physical Therapy Not Working

Prednisone Not Working

Rebif Not Working

Open Lesbian Relationship Challenges

Lucy, one of my alters, is a proud lesbian.

Treatments

Acceptance Working / Worked

No treatment necessaruy as it ain't a problem

Open Coming Out

My family knows nothing about my bisexuality. Linda who is also bi and Lucy who's a lesbian are always threatening to come out to my family. They have come out to some of my friends and have freaked out a couple of them.

Open Bipolar Disorder

I was recently diagnosed as bipolar-rapidly cycling. I have mede a few suicide attempts and have been locked up many times.

Treatments

Acceptance Working / Worked

No msatter how crazy I am I can still accept myself as being the real me and not some drugged out zombie.

Open Transgender

My alter Lindsey is aware that she is transgendered and wants to transition to being a guy.

Open Epilepsy & Seizures

My fiancee had seizures his whole life and died from a head injury that resulted from a seizure. My alter Lucy occasionally has a seizure from her MS, and my alter Lisa has classical GM epilepsy that is poor controlled despite meds.

Treatments

Acceptance Working / Worked

The only thing that works when nothing else does

Depakote Not Working

Dilantin Somewhat Helpful

Keppra Not Working

Klonopin Somewhat Helpful

Lamictal Somewhat Helpful

Open Chronic Pain

Chronic severe neuropathic pain in my stumps prevents me from walking on them or putting any pressure on them. I am a full-time w/chair user because of this.

Treatments

Chiropractic Adjustment Not Working

Cymbalta Not Working

Lyrica Not Working

Marijuana Working / Worked

The only thing that brings me any relief at all.

Neurontin Not Working

Open Hearing Loss & Deafness
Type: Sensorineural (Profound)

My alter Lisa has less than 5% of her hearing. That means that she is really TOTALLY deaf.

Treatments

Hearing Aids Not Working

Lis ahs never found one...evdn the kind u wear around your neck..to help even a little

Lip Reading Somewhat Helpful

Lisa does her best to lip read but still gets things wrong quite often.

Sign Language Working / Worked

Lisa is fluent in ASL but very few of the ppl she meets know it.

Open Eating Disorders

Lisa, one of my alters, has never had a healthy relationship with food. She has every type of eating disorder.

Open Dizziness & Vertigo

Lucy has severe balance problems from the MS. She has had a few nasty falls.

Open Female Sexual Issues

I used 2 think I was straight but I have discovered that I am bi. I am a multiple and have alters who are bi, lesbian and transgendered.

Open Blindness & Visual Impairment
Type: Legally Blind

Lucy is legally blind from MS.

Treatments

Acceptance Working / Worked

The only thing that works when there is no hope.

Open Bereavement

My 25 y.o. fiance died after 2 months in a coma following a brain injury. I am devastated.

Treatments

Crying Not Working

Keeping Busy Not Working

Remembering Not Working

I just keep feeling worse and worrse

Open Dystonia

I have dystonia from having taken Zyprexa many years ago when maniac . My body is always twisting 2 some extent

Treatments

Baclofen Not Working

Cogentin Not Working

Klonopin Somewhat Helpful

I get a litle relief drom Klonopin.

Open Healthy Sex

I'm bi and was engaged to a guy who recently died. I'm a multiple and Linda is also bi...Lucy is les and Lindsey is transsexual and seems 2 have her own alter Larry . . . the guy within her body. I know little about Lisa but she is a nympho and sometimes takes money from guys who are into having sex with a disabled woman.

Open Incest Survivors

I was raped many times by my grandfather and uncle. I told no one about it for many years as they threatened to kill me if I said a word. I still have flashbacks and nightmares on a daily basis and cut and smoke too much weed to try to control them. My grandfather is dead and m,y uncle is in prison for life but i still don't feel safe.

Treatments

Psychotherapy Not Working

I have been betrayed by every therapist I have seen. They keep sending me to psychiatric hospitals against my will.

Open Scoliosis

I used to be taller but because of the worsening of my kyphoscoliosis I'm now a 4'8" camel with a large hump.

Treatments

Brace Not Working

Did not stop the progression.

Harrington Rods Not Working

Rods had to be removed and I was left with more of a deformity

Surgery Working / Worked

I had two dutgeries and they both failed.

Open Interracial Relationships

I'm Black-Hispanic and my fiance. who recently died, was white. We both had multiple disabilities and it seemed as if we had much more in common than we had in the way of differences. Both of our families had some problems accepting the interracial aspect of our relationship.

Open Autism / Autism Spectrum

Linda, one of my alters, is a severe Aspie or a not so bad Autie and I hate 2 look ppl in the eyes.

Treatments

Patience Working / Worked

It is slowly working.

Open Spina Bifida
Type: meningocele

Bexause of SB a former lover of mine needs braces and crutches to get around. I have never been able to get her to try using a chair.

Open Morgellons Disease

I don't know if I am crazy or sick. Also I'm not sure if the disease or the treatment is worse. I just so very confused by all of this