Donnatello's Journal

Tomorrow is my test for the enlarged supraclavicle lymphnode.  In the last 3 days I have been having face and neck tingling.  Wonder if it is from the lymphnode pressing on the nerve.  Will find out tomorrow.  If the test comes out positive, I know I am going to lose it because I cannot believe that after all I have been through, I will have to deal again with this.  It has only been 3 years from the last recurrence.  I was just starting to feel normal again and bam.  I cannot understand this since I am on arimidex and thought that this pill was helping me.  I have been through chemo and herceptin and arimdex..  This is all too much.  How can I not worry?  I know worrying isn't going to help me but I just cannot help it.  I am sad and angry at the same time.