rippedsoul's Journal

I have been working on healing my heart and my body.   Had surgery and am doing well :)  My son is my cross to bear, but I have come to realize that this is his karma.  He put himself where he is and I will not suffer for him.  I will not enable him.  I will go on with my life.  I love him, but I must take care of myself.  I am healing.  There is hope, if we want to feel better. 

It might help that my son is not the nicest guy in the world.  If he were still my little angel it would be more hurtful.  He is my baby and used to be a sweetiepie.  Things change.  We have to accept this and move on.  I don't want to be sad, so I refuse to be.  Perhaps he will once again be a sweetheart ... ???  I am not going to give up on him and I continue to pray for him.  God has helped me get through this and I am so grateful that I made a concerted effort to turn it all over to Him and all that He has done for me.  If we do this with total sincerity it works :)  I am finding peace. 

I want to be here if I am needed by you all in anyway.  The support that I was given with such open hearts here makes this such an incredible place to be :)  All of you ladies gave me so much strength, support and love.  I pray that the love you give comes back to you 10 fold and that you all find peace.  

I will chime in to see if I am needed or can follow my role models (Rhea, Huskersky, and so many others), offering support to others when I can.  

Know that when I am not able to get on as often as I would like, that you are all still in my thoughts.  

Warmly,

RS

PS  I was thinking about changing my name to BetterSoul, but that would be BS. so I will just remain RS :)