well this is my first entry on …
well this is my first entry on here so I better make it a good one huh? LOL Well today was actually an ok day but I am …
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iammoosh 
2:09am, December 1, 2008
my life is falling apart, and i don't know what to do anymore... 
i've lost over 30 pounds since the end of october because i've been eating next to nothing. i just don't care anymore. i talked to barb (my pastor's wife) on the phone this morning and she got tough with me. she's been talking about how the "not eating much" thing has to change because after 3 weeks of talking about it, i haven't budged. she knows i'm scared; she used to be anorexic. she knows what i'm feeling. but she said that i have to give up the control i'm hanging onto and let go. she told me to call her when i get ready to eat lunch and she'll talk me through it. is it bad that i haven't called her because i don't want to eat lunch?
i'm terrified that once i start eating i won't be able to stop. i'm still fat, and i don't want to get REALLY fat again...
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Sissy!!! You CAN do this! I'm so worried about you and I love you so much. I miss you...:( Please fight even if its one second, minute and hour at a time.
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I'm worried about you as well hun.please know you are not alone in this.You do not need to fight alone.Know that I am here if you need to talk.HUGS!!!Tee
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