iammoosh's Journal

so.  this is my first journal entry.  so i'll start with the basics.  that's probably a good place to start...

my name is ali (short for alison).  i'm 30 years old, and the oldest of four girls.  my sisters are an amazing support for me.   i've had an eating disorder since i was 12 yeard old.  it started when my dance teacher (ballet) told me i needed to lose some weight.  i couldn't stop losing weight once i started, and ended up with anorexia. 

my first inpatient hospitalization was when i was 19.  up until that time, my parents were in denial that i had a problem.  once i moved out of the house and was out on my own, i started seeing a therapist who specialized in eating disorders.  she had me admitted to a psychiatric hospital.  that would be the first of 37 psych hospitalizations in 10 years.  i've been in and out of both psychiatrict and medical hospitals, my longest hospitalization being 7 months in a program called mercy ministries of america. 

right now, i'm in the application process for five free, christian residential programs that treat eating disorders, among other issues (i also struggle with self-harm, PTSD, and depression).  i got an e-mail yesterday from one of the programs.  they're going to call me on monday or tuesday to go over my application and let me know if they can help me.

please keep your fingers crossed...