Journal

5/8/07
I've been doing a lot better the last few weeks. I'm trusting God, helping others, enjoying the sunshine, and not taking life so seriously. I'm also better at accepting others for who they are lately. I'm not as sensitive to others' remarks. I know that I do better overall when it's ANY season besides winter. I don't do well when it's not daylight savings time/ when it's cold. It truly affects my mood.
I feel blessed to be me.

Have part of my voice back. Worked part of today.
I feel so blessed to be willing to put one foot in front of the other. Today I had to be assertive with a friend and it's amazing to me how I still am tempted to regress to being aggressive.
Tonight however I had to be 'sternly' assertive with a new AA sponsee. I do not play around with my life and I won't play around with hers. The disease of alcoholism is so powerful...the way it works on an active alcoholic's mind is heart breaking to watch sometimes.
Today marks fifteen years without a cigarette!!! I'm so grateful to be free of that addiction as well. It sucked!!!!!!

I have laryngitis because of a sinus infection. This is the seventh time since last April that I've been on antibiotics and the second or third time that I've had laryngitis. I need my voice to work...looks like I'm not working tomorrow. :-) I'm just grateful that it's not anything untreatable or that I have to go the hospital, etc. Also...I'm sponsoring a new woman in AA and I'd much rather be feeling like I do now instead of still detoxing after only a week sober. So I'm very grateful for everything I have today...including this sinus crud.