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candyrose34 
3:22pm, March 7, 2009
well ihaven't been on here in forever, i haven't been doing so well and felt that i wouldn't be much use to anybody here. so, i haven't been around much.
I am still not doing well. I got rid of the abusive ex last june thought i was doing better but then i started having anxiety attacks related to his abuse. Now i find out that i have abnormal cells growing on my cervix and i have to have these cells removed next week. I am scared and angry. why do i have to deal with all of these things at once? how many times do i need to be knocked down before i stop getting up? when is it going to be my time to be happy and fullfilled? i guess it could be a hell of a lot worse, but couldn't it always be worse? i am trying to look at the bright side at least they found the abnormal cells brfore they grew bigger the doctor said that most likely the procedure will take care of the problem. still scared it seems that when you have a health problem your whole life gets put on hold until it is taken care of, that pisses me off more than anything else. i have to wait to really move forward until this is taken care of.
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You know, We're here to help you through the bad times, not just to share the good times with. Thank you for checking in. I had the cells removed from my cervix a few years ago. I remember telling everyone that would listen at the time and actully from then on that someone should have told me it was gonna hurt like that. I was a nitwit and just didn't have a clue. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Love & hugs.
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