Seeking Erato
October 20, 2008 4:38pm
Plus any and all other muses! My writing is like a dulled butter knife, a discordant violin, my world is in chaos, strife! It is like a year ago I …
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PandorasPlight 
6:31pm, May 19, 2009
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About Me
PandorasPlight
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About Me
I am an adult recently diagnosed with AS, my area of avidity is verbal I score in the 98 to 99 percentile which translates to the top 1% to 2% in the entire nation my capability to utilize this should have resulted in Children's Books but with a differential gap of being able to use it in actualizition at just 36% I have remained stuck. Right now I feel great frustration, even pain over the lack of adequate adult services. This is NOT a gifted life!! "Every man of genius sees the world at a different angle from his fellows, and there is his tragedy."
I am an adult recently diagnosed with AS, my area of avidity is verbal I score in the 98 to 99 percentile which translates to the top 1% to 2% in the entire nation my capability to utilize this should have resulted in Children's Books but with a differential gap of being able to use it in actualizition at just 36% I have remained stuck. Right now I feel great frustration, even pain over the lack of adequate adult services. This is NOT a gifted life!! "Every man of genius sees the world at a different
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Interests
Writing, studying, pondering, mulling, exploring, soul searching, gazing @ the stars, waiting to "be!"
Writing, studying, pondering, mulling, exploring, soul searching, gazing @ the stars, waiting to "be!"
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The Echoes of The Warbling Whales
September 15, 2008 2:27am
I was enchanted to google a language all their own and read of these creatures! The manner in which they communicate arcane and esoteric but who …
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Shuttered Windows
July 27, 2008 10:11pm
I sit at a laptop in a place that I do not understand, a smelly rooming house in Norwich Connecticut trying to trace back the steps that took me …
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Shades of Grey
June 7, 2008 8:32pm
A hundred shades of grey, with all the colour stripped away. Tear at me, tear at me, I start to fray. In all earnest I must say, that I just look @ …
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My Crayon Box
May 28, 2008 8:41pm
All the beautiful colours, snagged up one by one, stay in the lines, the sky is not red, trees are not purple, who the Hell sets these silly …
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Celebration
Glad to see you are back! I've been worried about you. Tell us what you've been up to.
Susan
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wanted give hug. say hi. miss you. your great friend. you make difference.
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Where are you, Pandora? Did you leave Daily strength? 
I’m With You
That is a LOT!!!! You're fighting a good fight, and you're not alone in your corner!!!!
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Thank you for the note. I have come to realize the journey shouldn't be rushed. All in good time. I hope this note finds you well
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Close Asperger Syndrome
I just feel LOST!! I am trying to find my way!! So strange I have this condition which is considered complex but the me underneath loves simple things: patchwork quilts, wild roses in June, lilacs in May. I am waiting on God to point me in the direction HOME as I need to go there but right now I do not even know where that is! I do not want pity, I don't want to feel any of the uglies: anger, bitterness, blame, I just want to be me and to know that is o-kay. I am so weary...
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- Sometimes I feel I have done this far too much!! Still due to how I was mishandled, even mistreated there are times I feel the old RAGE infringing upon me but now I have context, I have WORDS for this thing!! So I allow myself to release it and feel the genuine pain I prefer this anguish over allowing that to own me and it NEVER will again!!
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- I hate the addictive quality but my PANIC can be so severe this really helps me to center and with my life in flux permits me to sleep!
- Pets Working / Worked
- My Maine Coon kitty Kindred ( BIG boy!! :) ) I often brush my face with his bushy tail very comforting.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- With LIMITED adult services, He is the ONLY one who can REALLY understand what this feels like for me!
- Talking Working / Worked
- Kelly who I felt an affinity with from the onset, knowing somehow she had the missing puzzle piece and could FINALLY take me back to a time & a place where I was 8 years old, she has been a MAJOR help as she has been involved with AS and even attended Temple Grandin's lectures!! Harbour Church Emma, Shawna, so much light & LOVE!!
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- This is helping I KNOW but my life is in such disarray which renders it less effective.
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- This is what I take NOT Zoloft but I can NOT seem to edit and remove that! Zoloft fid not work for me but Lexapro has indeed been helpful!
Close Sensory Integration Disorder
I have Aspergers, with hypersensitivity! I was reading this and I could relate to so MUCH!
