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nevagiveup 
10:53am Saturday
got engaged on friday i have everything i want nice house nice animal the sun is bursting from the sky
but yet i want to die
i cant fly
just cry
angry tears
so many fears
unfounded but so real to me
god please help me i kneel
to pray
why does he stay?
im crazy
sad
depressed manic
so much work
so cheeky so messy
what do i have to offer him ?
why does he want me
what does he see
that i dont ?
why cant i jsut chill
and enjoy what i have ?
im grateful and blessed
so why im still unhappy
i dont want to give up
my name says nevagiveup
but
im tired and sore
frightened
of never feeling happy
of never not feeling this nevaending saddness
please help me
i see the knife
it would be so easy to cut
up and let the blood
drip out
would that make me chill
give me a thrill
PLEASE HELP ME
but yet i want to die
i cant fly
just cry
angry tears
so many fears
unfounded but so real to me
god please help me i kneel
to pray
why does he stay?
im crazy
sad
depressed manic
so much work
so cheeky so messy
what do i have to offer him ?
why does he want me
what does he see
that i dont ?
why cant i jsut chill
and enjoy what i have ?
im grateful and blessed
so why im still unhappy
i dont want to give up
my name says nevagiveup
but
im tired and sore
frightened
of never feeling happy
of never not feeling this nevaending saddness
please help me
i see the knife
it would be so easy to cut
up and let the blood
drip out
would that make me chill
give me a thrill
PLEASE HELP ME
Comments
hey hunnie are you ok?
its a big step getting engaged, you are saying that you've found the one for you , n your search for love is over. ahhh
just relax
your just having a down day but it'll pass im sure.
don't do anything you'll regret later.IE .cut .no. no.
call your doc tomorrow ! please dont do anything thats not good for you
take care xx
veryblue
just so U know!
before U were thought of or time had begun, God stuck U in the name of his son.
and each time U pray, you'll see it's true, you can't spell out JusUs and not include U.
you're a pretty big part of his wonderful name, for U, he was born; thats why he came.
and his great love for U is the reason he died. it takes U to spell crUcified.
isn't it thrilling and splendidly grand he rose from the dead, with U in his plan?
the stones split away, the gold trUmpet blew, and this word resUrrection is spelled with a U.
when JesUs left earth at his upward ascension, he felt there was one thing he just had to mention. he loves you.
i'm sorry your sad. maybe you want a change of pace or maybe you need it to rain :) to much sun can be depressing. i will pray for you :) ((hugs))
paprik
Things sound so exciting in your life and I agree you should be happy. I am so sorry you are sad and struggling. He choose you for a reason, I hope you can fight through this darkness and find a happy peaceful life. My prayers are with you. Kelly
kweeks2006
Please know how important you are to others lives. You have been such a help to me and I would hate to see you hurt yourself , you are my imspiration. You WILL get through this. You are a wonderful person and thats why God still has you here. Keep the faith, keep praying, stay strong and you WILL be happy. Yes, all those things should make you happy but if they dont, its coming from within you. Please learn to love yourself, you have mentioned your parents to me several times. Maybe its time to see if you can work through that issue. I dont know where you are with that but I have a feeling its a very sore spot. We cant pick our parents, but We CAN choose to make ourselves different from them. Accept who you are and love YOU the most. Then you will be happy. I know you will work through this and be happy again. I just know it. Things reallly do happen for a reason and you are a strong person, after all you have been through. Its ok to not always be happy. But something isnt right and its only you that can try to fix it. God has you here for a reason. We need you. I pray for you and your happiness. That is most important. You dont have to be perfect. There are people who LOVE you and I for one would like to continue to be here for you anytime. And I need your support as well. Hang tough, you can get through this. Look how far you have come already. God is giving you the backbone you need. I promise.
beleiveinme
ALL YOUR FRIENDS ARE RIGHT NEVA! YOU ARE A SPECIAL PERSON TO ALL OF US & YOUR FIANCE'. WE ALL NEED YOU TO CONTINUE TO BE OUR FRIEND & TELL US TO NEVAGIVEUP!!!!! HUGS & PRAYERS, REE
ladylincoln58
HEY HEY ... CUT THAT SHIT OUT !!! YOU ARE A WONDERFUL WOMAN AND PERSON !! YOU HAVE ALOT TO OFFER, AND GIVE TO SOMEONE !! WHY ARE YOU SO DEPRESSED ALL THE TIME ?? SOME UNDERLYING THING IS BOTHERING YOU, YOU MAY NEED TO SEEK HELP, MEDS, WHATEVER IT TAKES TO GET OUT OF THIS SLUMP, BEFORE YOU HURT YOURSELF OF SOMEONE ELSE ... I WILL PRAY THIS DARK CLOUD LIFTS, AND THAT YOU FIND THE INNER PEACE YOU SO RIGHTLY DESERVE !
HANG IN THERE MY FRIEND !! LOVE, MARIE
Scorp55
Sounds like you're depressed. Therapy can help. I suggest you look into it! Lifes too short to be miserable!
asadheart