Journal Entry for April 10, 2007
Hey everyone.Sorry I haven't written, but have been going through a lot, & don't like to bring anyone down. I have had enough at my friend's house. I …
I am 41 yoa; I raised 4 girls & 1 boy alone for many years,working 2-3 jobs to support them. I have sung all my life, as well as writing poetry & songs. I love relaxing with a good book, or the beach- anywhere there is water. I love to swim, & have always wanted to swim with dolphins. I have a collection of them, & also collect cherubs, angels,& frogs. I have worked all my life in retail management, or phone sales management. I have had 2 strokes, & I have seizures, as well as many other health problems, so I am currently waiting on disability.I am a christian, & believe in God.My philosophy in life is to try to love & help all mankind. My main passions again, are reading, writing, singing, & relaxing by the water.
I am 41 yoa; I raised 4 girls & 1 boy alone for many years,working 2-3 jobs to support them. I have sung all my life, as well as writing poetry & songs. I love relaxing with a good book, or the beach- anywhere there is water. I love to swim, & have always wanted to swim with dolphins. I have a collection of them, & also collect cherubs, angels,& frogs. I have worked all my life in retail management, or phone sales management. I have had 2 strokes, & I have seizures, as well as many other health problems,
Hey everyone.Sorry I haven't written, but have been going through a lot, & don't like to bring anyone down. I have had enough at my friend's house. I …
I am SO glad that you have this site. If you read my profile, then you know that I just got out of ANOTHER domestic relationship, & I have many …
I believe in the sun even when it isn't shining. I believe in love even when I am alone. I believe in God even when he is silent. Just stopping in to say hello and to let you know that you are thought about..Tak care and know that you are loved..deborah
Just stopping in to say hello and to let you know that you are thought about. Sending warm wishes and many blessings for you...love deborah
hey, are you on now? how are you?
fresh hug, made just you.
just for you
I have been in 3 domestic marriages, & just ended a 1 1/2 yr dmstc rltnshp. I seem to be a bad boy magnet. I've suffered several concusssions, as well as 2 broken feet, & a very bad burn. I'm afraid to even try to get involved again.
Mental illnesses run in my family, & I have bi-polar, & other mental issues.I have applied for disability in 12/05 because of my many mental & physical health conditions, but because I have no insurance, & no income, I am having a hard time finding a good psychiatrist. That of course is detrimental to my conditions.I go to the local mental health center, & the 2 psychiatrists that were there were very good. I liked them,& they had me on meds that really seemed to work.See below under med clinic.
See my page/profile. I have had 7-9 concussions, I have had 2 broken feet, I have a metal rod & plate in my left leg, back injuries, & both knees injured as well. I can not sit too long, I cannot stand too long, I cannot walk too far; I must always change position, & I have to use a cane. I am supposed to have surgery on my knees (needed for over 1 year now), but cannot do anything until I get disability (1 more year) I'll possibly be in a wheelchair by then. I am in CONSTANT agony with chronic
I was a Daddy's girl, & he passed in the Buffalo, NY VA hosp., on 11/16/04. He was the only good man I ever had in my life. He was more than just my dad- he was my best friend! Me & my mother never got along, & she would not send me a ticket. I never got to go to the hosp, to say goodbye, didn't get to go to the service. It is something I've never gotten over, & live with every day. I just want 1 more walk, talk, & kiss. He always accepted me no matter what. I miss him SO much!!!
I got asthma as an adult from smoking cigarettes from the age of 11. It is always worse 1st thing in the morning, late at night, & when it's cold out.
I contracted HPV from an ex-husband, back in the early nineties, & developed cervical cancer. They had to take most of my cervix out-I have a 1/2 inch left (most are 7-8 inches long). I was supposed to go back after 1 yr for a checkup, but was never able to.
I have had 7-9 concussions from ex-husbands, & I am hard of hearing now. The tv must be louder than normal, I have to ask people to speak up, & I can't hear if ther's a lot of background noise.
I suffer from chronic heartburn no matter what I do, or eat. I developed acid reflux disease, which burns.
I have had IBS for over 3 years. The hsptl drs want me to see a specialist, but am unable to do so. I always have it no matter what I eat. My stomach is always roiling. I cannot even make it through a meal, & I am running to a restroom. I hate it, & am sick of it.
I have suffered with migraines since I can remember. I will have to have lights out, no sound, no movement. I throw up, & pass out sometimes. A migraine lead to my 1st stroke. (I've had 2)
This runs in my family, & I have it real bad. It wakes me up from sleep during the night, & bothers me throughout the day. I have 2 braces that I use at night now.
I had my 1st seizure in May of 2004, & have lost count of how many since then. They do not know if they came from the strokes, or the domestic abuse concussions/ head trauma.
If you read my page, then you're aware of the domestic abuse. I also was in a very bad car accident. I suffer from agonizing back pain every day. I have not been able to sleep in a bed now for over 10 years. I sleep in a recliner chair. I used to have an adjustable hosptl bed, but it broke. I need an adjustable bed, because the pain is SO bad!
I worked since I was 17yo. Because of my many health issues, I had to stop working in March of '06. I filed for disability in '03, kept working, re-applied in 12/05, & have had no money or income since 3/06. I stayed in the abusive relationship to have a place to stay. I need my disability. I cannot even see to my own personal needs (shampoo, ect). I have to hitchhike to Dr's, because I cannot afford the bus. I am about to be homeless, & don't know what I will do, because of all my health prblms
I'm new to menopause, do not know much about it, do not know what stage I'm in. My periods are very irregular, & I have "hot flashes" a lot, especially at night. I would appreciate any info anyone can give me.
If you saw my page, you know my story; 22yrs of domestic abuse. They say that some of the things I've been through are like a prisoner of war.I'm VERY claustraphobic. To this day, I cannot be in a locked room, or have the door shut. I am terrified of the dark. I jump whenever someone comes up behind me, or there is a loud bang/noise. I will leave the room if people are arguing/fighting.
I am paranoid about catching germs. I will check to make sure the coffeepot, oven, sink, are all turned off (I have left them on before). I always repeatedly check my doors to make sure they're locked.
I have really bad anxiety/ panic attacks.I will scratch & pick at my skin until I draw blood, & then keep scratching/picking at it, re-open cuts by scratching them. I tear & bite my nails & cuticles until they are inflamed, hurting, & bleeding bad. I have scars on my legs. I am trying to stop.