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scarlett5202 
Just want to thank all of you who took the time to write entries on my last two journal entries and send me hugs and words of encouragement. When I wrote these entries, I was finding it difficult to cope with the situation I found myself in and writing it down was a sort of therapy for me.
I am now wondering whether I should have kept these entries private because I have now moved on in that I am accepting my situation - knowing that the next few weeks/months will see me in troughs at times because the road is never smooth (for any of us). However, I refuse to get stuck in a trough for long and I usually find a way out!
Would anyone would like to share with me how they use their journal entries because right now I feel guilty to have burdened folks when I could have kept my personal despair private especially since I have now moved on but have not bothered to say so in my journal - until now?
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hmm, personally never really thought about it much - i sort of write when i feel like writing and don't when i don't - one of those things i mostly leave to the subconscious to decide.
i do think about its decisions after the fact though and my understanding of what it does is write things down to clarify the thinking process. and i do mainly write my journals for myself. its nice when people leave comments but that's never the purpose. the main reason i leave them public is so i can see the pattern of moods on the 'past entries' section - if they're private, we only see padlocks instead of the faces.
as for writing negatives or positives, once again depends on the state i'm in. if i'm in deep despair mode, usually chemical dysfunction, it does help to have a bit of a vent and doing so can make me realise the errors in my thinking - but i still keep them after for future reference. lately though, i haven't been that bad illness wise but am having mind control challanges so usually i won't write down thoughts i'm trying to dispel so i'm not engaging and reinforcing them. but if i'm failing in dispelling them, then i'll start writing them down - if i'm already engaged, might as well try anything that might work!
so, probably no clear cut rules for me, going with the flow seems to work best.
cagedDreams
Comforting to hear. I suppose what really concerned me is that, when I am content, I don't necessarily feel moved to write. So, my writing is likely to happen when my mood is more extreme - mostly low, but sometimes, thankfully, high!
scarlett5202
Thats what we are here for marion, to help you when you feel bad!! you shouldnt worry at all, i just delete my entries, as when i read back at them i sounded crazy!! when in fact the next day i felt ok. The highs and lows we feel when looking after our sick children make us like that i think!!! Take care xx
carina99
Hi Jan! I don't mind sounding crazy - part of my history. I just don't want friends to worry about me when I have moved on and am coping again.
And, I know only too well the strain of looking after a sick/vulnerable child (regardless of age)
Thanks for your thoughts x
scarlett5202
I totally understand :)
toria53