nemcgrath's Journal

I went out with 2 of my good friends on New Years Eve- after finding out my Daddy, who has not been to a doctor in 27 years...he is now 74, he passed out on the bathroom floor the Sunday B4 and Mom took him to the ER and he has prostate cancer...

So, NY Eve- went out, I was looking good I must say-and in a mood to forget-I only had 2 beers cuz of the meds...but I met this cute boy and we hit it off and text to each other all night long-then we were gonna meet over the weekend and I never heard from him again...it is okay B-cuz he helped me get my MOJO back...

Anyway, on to today- I had a pain management appt today and went out to warm my 2002 Buick Century up (Sir William is his name and he has NEVER given me problems) but today he decides to not want to run right...he was coughing and sputtering...I shut him off and popped the hood.

There was anti-freeze everywhere!  My resevoir was empty!  He did not overheat last time I drove him-I watch cuz he did need a new radiator cap about 1 year ago for over heating problem...anyway i pray it is only the water pump and not the block...yes, I used to work on cars.

Problem is with X-mas and all I dont even have $$$$ for food right now...I am so sick of my life!  I could fucking scream...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

Thanks for listening once again... 

I have decided I want to find a man to take care of me (which completely goes against my fixed way of being, you know "being needy")  I have never been married and I am 42.  I am sick of "struggling" thru this shit alone...  I am glad I have all of you.

Love-

N~~~

PS:  My back feels better since the ablation!