Sick to my Stomach
August 12, 2008 12:41am
The flu bug has passed again, yet the pit of my stomach aches, my ribs creak, eyes and throat burn.
I wanted to die the other night. End …
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silentviolin
12:42am, August 12, 2008
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About Me
silentviolin
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About Me
I am experiencing a period of renaissance and deep sorrows. I want to understand nature, and how I fit into the universe.
I am experiencing a period of renaissance and deep sorrows. I want to understand nature, and how I fit into the universe.
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Interests
History, nature, books, animals, baking, crafts, gardening, writing, music, kids
History, nature, books, animals, baking, crafts, gardening, writing, music, kids
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Why?
August 10, 2008 4:04am
For the first time in my life, I wiped my butt with buterflies! Western Family Paper Co. almost made me feel guilty, but then I just had to …
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Viral Invasion
August 10, 2008 3:58am
I've spent the past three weeks now vomitting, in the bathroom, and sleeping on the couch. I mope around until I can manage to keep some …
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Feeling death encroaching
August 2, 2008 2:12am
The past few weeks have been a steamy, miserable fog. I was bed/couch ridden for almost the entire time, due to a stomach bug my bf brought …
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***HUGS*** Haven't heard from you in awhile and wanted to check in and see how things are. xoxoxoxox
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hope u feel better
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Just wanted to see how you're doing since I haven't heard from you in awhile. Are you ok????
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Hey Jen! Thanks for the hug back. I'm glad my hug took you by surprise and brightened your day a little :) Like you, i took have had all these labels on me. Depression...now bipolar. And so many more. Of course I take everything out on myself in harmful ways. I don't even know who me is anymore I'm so caught up in my destructive behavior. I just wish we could both have a moment of peace and find our true selves beyond our labels xoxoxo glad to have you as a friend!
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
This is one of the issues I have, but everyone has them, and now I am learning how to grow as a person and use this quirk to my advantage.
Treatments
- Ativan Not Working
- Didn't do a thing for me.
- Celexa Working / Worked
- It takes longer than lexapro, but works better at keeping me stable and falling into deep dark nightmares.
- Holistic Health Working / Worked
- Chamomile Working / Worked
- Either in a strong tea or smoked in a handrolled rice paper. Soothing as a pacifier.
Close Chronic Pain
Somedays I feel a hundred years old... everything aches and creaks, and even my insides don't work
Treatments
- Acupressure Working / Worked
- Chiropractic Adjustment Working / Worked
- Heat Somewhat Helpful
- Hydrocodone Not Working
- Naproxen Somewhat Helpful
- Oxycodone Not Working
Open Eating Disorders
Treatments
- Celexa Not Working
- Lexapro Not Working
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
Open Self-Injury
Cigarettes weren't killing me fast enough, so I started making "pretty" designs burned into my ankle.
Open Seasonal Affective Disorder
I wish I could sleep the winter away like a Grizzly bear...
Open Panic Attacks
I was glad to learn I am not the only one who feels "heart attacks". I can get them up to a 3/4 times a day, sometimes lasting hours. I am learning to take preventative care.
Treatments
- Ativan Not Working
- Worked a little bit, but the panic attacks would come out of nowhere and be even more intense.
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- What a life-saver! I take 2mgs a day broken-up throughout the day as needed.
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- Patience Not Working
- When your body is out of sync, waiting only makes it worse.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Xanax Somewhat Helpful
- But I need a BIG dose for it to be any help, where I forego it altogether now.
- Chamomile Working / Worked
- I love it.
Open Anxiety
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Xanax Working / Worked
- I need more!
Open Trichotillomania (Hair Pulling)
Type: Compulsive Skin PickingI switch between hair pulling, skin picking, hair cutting, shaving for hours... I can never truly stop
Open Chicken Pox
I am an itchy freak.
Open Muscular Dystrophies
Type: Becker\'s MDMy dad has a rare adult-onset type that typically affects males, but I am the clutz with the leg spams of the kids, and it worries me about my future and if I should have kids.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I still have nightmares, but they had their hearts in the right place.
Treatments
- Art Not Working
- I tried sending hand-made gifts to my siblings, but they have been turned against me.
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- My dad and I can now talk to each other. My mother insists on blowing out my flame to make hers seem brighter.
- Leave Somewhat Helpful
- Still searching for a new home after being kicked out almost 5 years ago on my 18th birthday.
- Music Working / Worked
- Lets you float away from it all...
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Reassured me I wasn't an evil child.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Sharing the dark parts of childhood with my fiance.
Open Homelessness
Motel, to friends' house, to motel, to apartment, to bf's dads, to bf's moms, all in the last five years. I feel like a nomad.
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