lasthopem's Journal

my counsellor rang me this morning after I had cancelled my appointment.  He said i wouldnt be wasting his time if i went, but i stil wasnt going to go.  Then geordie was chatting to me and told me to go as well, for him if nothing else.  I still wasnt goig to but i did in the end, and im glad i did.  My counsellor told me that we can take things easier, because im working through some things with my psychologist as well, and working through too much at once is too hard, and so he said we could take things easier and its like i have had part of he weight lifted off my shoulders.  I even sort of enjoyed work which i really didnt want to go to. 

I still feel like im wasting everyones time getting therapy, but i dont know, everyone seems to want me to go so we'll see. 

Mum is coming to stay on friday night.  I dont know if im looking forward to it or not.  It all depends on her mood on friday.  She is looking forward to seing my kittens though so hopefully it will be good.  

They have grown so much since i got them.  They are 14 weeks old now, and probably two and a half times the size they were when i got them.  

Im watching a program on tv right now about everyday heroes. Stories about everyday people who do extraordinary things, like little kids who save the life of one of their parents or something.  These kids really are awesome.  Theres a story about an 8 year old girl whos mum went into a diabetic coma while she was driving and this girl drove for 60kms to get in range to contact her dad on the UHF radio so he could come help them.  She had her two little sisters in the car too.  

Sorry about this journal being all over the place.  My brain is only half working today.  I took a couple of extra pills (not too many, just enough) to just settle everything down so i could at least go to work and function.

Laters,

M