lasthopem's Journal

my kittens are fine, thanks for asking.  They grow up so fast though.  They are well and truly at the headbutting stage... its so cute.

I disappeared for the day like i said i would and well, it was interesting. But didnt help.

I have to go to bed becuse i have to get up for work in the morning.  I ddont want to but ihave to.

At least mum is talking to me again... sort of.  She chucked a spack with me the other day because she wanted me to go to the craft shop and buy her like 3m of fabric, which was fine, but would have meant me spending what money I had left before I got paid again, which would have then meant that my kittens and dog would have had to go hungry for a couple of days and so naturally I said no... and naturally, mum didnt like being told no (probably because I hardly ever say no to her, but when its between my animals needs and mums want the animals win every time) so mum said all the usual things about me being selfish and worthless and the rest of it and then hung up the phone and wouldnt talk to me.  But today she rang me again to see if I had gotten over MY little spat the other day - ah well, I dont care, at least shes talking to me.

I wish there was something around that was safe and that could take all the stress away from your life for even an hour or two. Even an hour withoutany stress a week would be good - something to look forward to... but then again, as I said yesterday, why bother even contemplating something that wont happen.

I did do something nice esterday - I sent my sis a parcel.  It has her second CD in it as per her request.  I hope she likes it.  I dont think I did a very good job of it, but she seems to like what I do for some strange reason.  I havent had any singing lessons orproper vocal practice in a fair while so its definitely not up to how it could be, but hey, she did ask... if she doesnt like it she doesnt have to listen to it right?

Theres one thing about it.  She has been feeling really low lately, and maybe having this coming will at least give her something to look forward to for at least a week or however long it takes to get to her(mail has ben so slow lately - even within aus, let alone getting all the way to england).  I hope it helps her feel better anyway - even if it is a dodgy CD.

Anyway, Im really tired, so Im going to go to bed... and my leg s really sore from the fall I had today, and the subsequent cuts I made for being such an idiot lol.

Hope everyone is going ok.

M