Wilo's Journal

Time goes by so fast sometimes. It just doesn't seem possible that so many months have passed and those have turned into years now. What brought me here was a very painful part of my life but the wounds are healing nicely. I have new people and things in my life now that make me feel pretty good. Some days are still a challenge, because I can't erase certain parts from my mind. I guess I don't want to do that anyway since those things helped make me who I am today. My new friend tells me, and she is so right, that I may never understand. My being an engineer makes not understanding really difficult, because I am trained to always seek for the root cause. I guess even if I did know, it won't matter. My daughter is still a missing link in my life and it feels really bad still. She will graduate in December from college and then she is all grown up. I miss her a lot and wish she would just talk to me. When she is ready, if ever. I just don't want this to be one of those stories where I lose my daughter for 30 years before we find each other and forgive for whatever happened. She is the most remarkable daughter that a father could hope to have. I wish she knew it. In the meantime, I am devoting my life to fundraising for causes that I find the most important. I don't know if I will succeed, but I am sure going to give it a try. I am having a great time and learning a lot about fundraising campaigns. Tonight I will sleep and miss my daughter but also feel okay because I know what a great person she is. I will sleep anxiously with all the campaign ideas I have swimming through my mind. 

Good night!