Journal

Yesterday was busy for me at work as I continued on a critical project. But after I left work, things got so much better! I have been following a basement band almost since they started. I shoot pictures of them as they practice and even on the first gig in a local pub. That was cool, but there were not very many people there. 

The band has been trying to get a demo cut of their music. Last night they worked on that demo. They actually started the night before, but finding the studio out in the middle of the country where there are no lights or addresses on houses made getting there impossible.

Well last night with some better directions, I made it to the recording session. It was fantastic to not only see the band recording, but I also got to capture it. I sort of had an idea how the process works. I only saw a music video being made but not a music demo recording. The process is similar. The instrument track was recorded first, then the lead singer sang the songs, followed by the back up singers. It was really cool, downright awesome! Watching the sound engineer piece all the tracks together was incredible. We were all listening to the tracks after recording and either the track had to be rerecorded in part or the engineer was able to pull out other pieces where things went perfect and paste the piece of music into the spot where everyone except me agreed that it was not so perfect. Everyone but me could hear spots that were not perfect. I have no idea what they were hearing, because to me, the vocals and the instruments were awesome! That's the music business.

I look forward to shooting more pictures of this band. They play traditional country music with a little bit of jazz in it. Sounds good to me. Since I grew up on the Johnny Cash kind of music, I love it.

Have a great Saturday!  

Time goes by so fast sometimes. It just doesn't seem possible that so many months have passed and those have turned into years now. What brought me here was a very painful part of my life but the wounds are healing nicely. I have new people and things in my life now that make me feel pretty good. Some days are still a challenge, because I can't erase certain parts from my mind. I guess I don't want to do that anyway since those things helped make me who I am today. My new friend tells me, and she is so right, that I may never understand. My being an engineer makes not understanding really difficult, because I am trained to always seek for the root cause. I guess even if I did know, it won't matter. My daughter is still a missing link in my life and it feels really bad still. She will graduate in December from college and then she is all grown up. I miss her a lot and wish she would just talk to me. When she is ready, if ever. I just don't want this to be one of those stories where I lose my daughter for 30 years before we find each other and forgive for whatever happened. She is the most remarkable daughter that a father could hope to have. I wish she knew it. In the meantime, I am devoting my life to fundraising for causes that I find the most important. I don't know if I will succeed, but I am sure going to give it a try. I am having a great time and learning a lot about fundraising campaigns. Tonight I will sleep and miss my daughter but also feel okay because I know what a great person she is. I will sleep anxiously with all the campaign ideas I have swimming through my mind. 

Good night! 

Another day ...

It's funny how I am so busy creating my cause and bringing it to life. I know it will be really exciting once it come to life and others begin to benefit from it.

But somedays it's hard to focus on this. I'm doing a pretty good job of staying focused, I hope anyway. Some days like this week have my mind elsewhere. I had a bad day this week and it just drained me. In the evening time I felt sick - like drained. I hate when that happens. I think it happened because I went to look at a new place I am considering moving to in Denver. And when I was visiting the place, I knew that I want my kids to come and see me. They will love it there. It just made me miss my kids all the more. It made me want for my daughter to call me and just talk to me.  I know she will someday. I just wish it could be now.