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My started off good joe got home for the hospital( and for all of you that dont know joe is y fiance and he is also suffering from OCD obsessive compulsive disordar). I had a teaching confrence today which what nice alittle break from the kids. But was at the beinging of one of the speakers that my day really turned for the worse.
You after understand the setting first. I live in nc which is a very religous area (im not from here so im nto use to this). Im in a confrence with 10 other teachers.
The guest speaker thought it would be nice to break the ice with every one tell eachother about the worst time and best time of this week. well when it got to me i said " well my worst time and best time are tied together . My fiance just has OCD and jsut got out of the hospital because they cant keep people in the psyatric ward more than 3 days ,so im happy hes home.The worst part is that hes still not well and i know he'll have to leave me again." with that another teacher asked me some questions abotu ocd and i glady answered them. well when it got to that teachers turn ( the one that asked me the questions) she had said god giving her health and the chance to live was the best thing that happend to her, she had every one pray for me and it was just very veyr emotional . As a professional i tryed my hardest to hold my tears in but i couldnt do it any longer and i bauld .
About an hour after that i had a very funny feeling so i walked out and went to the bath room to call joe. He had told me that there was a opening at another hospital and he was going to take it. You think i would be happy but i wasnt at all.I guess im selfish but i just want him to stay home and conqure his problem with me. But im getting very use to him being in the hospital and i got over it. Not even two hours later he calls me and tells me that i wouldnt be able to visit him because we are not married only family can visit. He then asked me if this was okay. what was i suppose to say no suffer ? so of course i said yes and hung up hoping he would take that as a sign and not admitt him self. we i should know by now that guys can read signs and he amitted him self :( AND TO TOP THE CAKE I CANT STOP PEEING SLEEPING AND EATING ALL SIGNS THAT IM MIGHT BE PREGANT! Which if i am i will feel blessed but i wanted to wait till after we got married so i was useing birth control which probly didnt work.
lets just say i couldnt be more emotional , physically, and mentally drained then i am right now, and if this god that every one down south talks about is a true god than he need to help me ! * so please keep me in your prayers.* and please excuse my spelling and grammer *
You after understand the setting first. I live in nc which is a very religous area (im not from here so im nto use to this). Im in a confrence with 10 other teachers.
The guest speaker thought it would be nice to break the ice with every one tell eachother about the worst time and best time of this week. well when it got to me i said " well my worst time and best time are tied together . My fiance just has OCD and jsut got out of the hospital because they cant keep people in the psyatric ward more than 3 days ,so im happy hes home.The worst part is that hes still not well and i know he'll have to leave me again." with that another teacher asked me some questions abotu ocd and i glady answered them. well when it got to that teachers turn ( the one that asked me the questions) she had said god giving her health and the chance to live was the best thing that happend to her, she had every one pray for me and it was just very veyr emotional . As a professional i tryed my hardest to hold my tears in but i couldnt do it any longer and i bauld .
About an hour after that i had a very funny feeling so i walked out and went to the bath room to call joe. He had told me that there was a opening at another hospital and he was going to take it. You think i would be happy but i wasnt at all.I guess im selfish but i just want him to stay home and conqure his problem with me. But im getting very use to him being in the hospital and i got over it. Not even two hours later he calls me and tells me that i wouldnt be able to visit him because we are not married only family can visit. He then asked me if this was okay. what was i suppose to say no suffer ? so of course i said yes and hung up hoping he would take that as a sign and not admitt him self. we i should know by now that guys can read signs and he amitted him self :( AND TO TOP THE CAKE I CANT STOP PEEING SLEEPING AND EATING ALL SIGNS THAT IM MIGHT BE PREGANT! Which if i am i will feel blessed but i wanted to wait till after we got married so i was useing birth control which probly didnt work.
lets just say i couldnt be more emotional , physically, and mentally drained then i am right now, and if this god that every one down south talks about is a true god than he need to help me ! * so please keep me in your prayers.* and please excuse my spelling and grammer *
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that teacher praying for you and your fiancee going to that new hospital is probably linked. it might be the best thing for you two especially if you are pregnant. it is better to conqure this disorder before the stresses of a new baby come along. you may not even be pregnant, stress can do funny things to the body. when do you miss your period? i'll be praying for you and your soon hubby. you may feel left out of his recovery but i'm sure that he feels that he is doing what is best for you and both of you as a couple. God bless. let me know how it goes.
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