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poppy1975 
12:33pm, January 10, 2009
Heres where i start to tell the tale of life experiences good and bad in the hope that i can share with those either going through or who have been through similar and that i might find others i might talk to about it and give maybe just a little inspiration to survive no matter what.
So here we start the beginnings of my troubles im born to my 18 year old mother out of wedlock in 1975 to a man who is 36 years her senior, all according to sources was rosy until at 18 months old my father passes away and my mothers struggles begin, my life now consists of being passed from pillar to post whilst my mother does what she must to keep us together, but at around three years of age the real strife begins and according to my mother (it was my fault), you see she had an accident and ended up in hospital and thats when me being put with carers started!
At the age of 5 i am eventually found a permanant foster home and am left, my mother tryed to come and see me but according to her it was to distressing for me!!!! (i think maybe it was more on her side than mine).and who still now expresses that guilt! ( i know i sound so bitter dont i? but there are so many mixed up feelings i have towards my mother, she is a hole saga in itself maybe save that for another day!!So the saga of my foster care life begins and the 14 years that ensued this is the real tough part truly, where to start with this lot!!!............. ok maybe the quick version on them.......for know!foster mother (shouldnt be allowed to call herself that) complete nut,minipulative,emotional and physical abuser, plain cruel,horrid, evil,wicked being and that was being pleasant cause i dont like to sware.foster father ( as above) minipulative, emotional and sexual abuser really cannot think of nice words to distribe him, all of the above and then some.foster brother (again) minipulative,sickening,evil,bully amongst other things.foster sister(always found it hard till therapy to think of her in a bad light) but was just as minipulative as the rest and used the rest of them against me with great effect. Just writing this brings back alot so the story will continue soon.............
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