belle's Journal

I thought today was going to be a good day but I was wrong.

I have been doing well with my DBT therapy and was busy taking my mom to the doctor and running errands Monday and Tuesday.  This morning I was on the computer and then took a nap.  I had no idea that school was letting out early today as I didn't look at the calendar.  My sister had to go pick up my little girl.  I am so embarassed.  I was sleeping and didn't hear the phone.  My little girl was the last one to be picked up.  Thank God my sister could pick her up.  She had no car seat either.  I felt sooooo bad when my husband came home and asked where is Morgan.  Anyway it got worked out.  Then I looked at the calendar and realized it was Oct. 7th and my anniversary. 

While my husband went to pick up my daughter I fixed a late lunch at 2:00pm.  I have waited and waited for my husband to say something about our anniversary but since we haven't been getting along he probably forgot.  I want to say something but in my DBT, I said I would leave him alone and give him his space and not nag or just act like we are not a couple and maybe he will come around when he is ready.

I am just so sad that we have been together for 19 years and this is where our marriage is.  Like 2 strangers just living together doing our own thing and each helping out with the kids.

I am not feeling well physically either.  My fever is 99.4 and it usually runs in 97. something.  I hope I am not getting sick.

I have been having really bad cravings today for real food.  My diet is getting to me.  I have lost 3 1/2 lbs. in 3 weeks and I don't want to blow it but it is really hard.

I guess I will get over this day tomorrow and start things anew.