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belle 
10:14pm, November 12, 2009
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About Me
belle
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About Me
I used to get out and socialize but last September, I was diagnosed with High Blood Pressure and fast heart rate. I am on medicine but my panic attacks returned really bad and now I am agoraphobic again. I am also overweight and don't have any energy at all.
I used to get out and socialize but last September, I was diagnosed with High Blood Pressure and fast heart rate. I am on medicine but my panic attacks returned really bad and now I am agoraphobic again. I am also overweight and don't have any energy at all.
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Interests
I used to love the warm weather but now I'm in surgical menopause and the heat drains me. I don't have as many interest as I used to. I still like spending time with my kids but I don't think they like spending time with me. I have a 13 yr. old son and 4 year old daughter.
I used to love the warm weather but now I'm in surgical menopause and the heat drains me. I don't have
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Recent Activity
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2 hugs received, 2 hugs given, 1 group discussion post, 1 journal comment
Tuesday
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belle gave ronna a little love 8:37am
Hey, You really need to try to get out more. I go to my group therapy once a week which is only about…
Monday
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belle commented on OJewel’s journal entry I will get back to you soon! 7:25pm
I am glad you are doing better and that you have friends to stay with you so you won't be alone. I think…
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belle gave ronna an I'm with you 7:03pm
Please, don't ever think you are complaining. That is what this site is for. I am so glad you went to…
November 12
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Hugbook
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I’m With You
i get out, about once a month for doctors, and i went to the birthday party. i'm at the point where i'm so use to staying in, going somewhere if i have to go is a effort. and of course, not ALONE. i got glasses and their too big for my face, they keep sliding down my nose, that was 2 or more weeks ago, still havn't went back. 6 years staying in sucks, i use to be so independent. i know how you feel, your not alone. i hate agorphobia!!!!!! love & hugs, ronna
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Hug
hi stella, how you doing? i'm the same. i went to my grandsons birthday party and i was fine. ron took me so that was good. once i am out with someone i am fine. i could have never left the apt. alone. other then that nothing is new, still living in my room, i think i could handle the anxiety and nerves, but this agorphobia is terrible. i know you know how bad it is. sorry for complaining. you take care of yourself. big hugs, dear friend,
Hug
You need a zillion hugs right now, I'm sending them your way. I am praying for you Stella. Try to hang in there. I know it is hard.
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I’m With You
ut oh, there is an orangey face next to your name. I was wanting to thank you for your sweet message to me in the journals and to let you know I am thinking about you. How ARE you?Lemme know if I can do anything.
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Ray of Sunshine
HUGS Stella!
Hope you have a better day today. Stay in touch with me please. I am an insomniac right now so I am wishing you well before my head hits the keyboard in a defeated moment of exhaustion.Love you,Stella. Stay strong! Jewel
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Anxiety
I have been living with anxiety since I was in 12th grade. I had my first panic attack. Actually I've had it all my life. I was around friends but always felt lonely. I feel this way now. I don't want to isolate myself but thats what I do. I can relate to feeling powerless because of the situation I'm in. I feel trapped and insecure.
Treatments
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- I try to out think the panic by thinking good thoughts and give myself positive affirmations like I can't die from this and this won't last forever.
- Valium Working / Worked
- It keeps me from having the agoraphobia and calms me. I still have attacks out of my safe zone.
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionAfter I received treatment for panic and anxiety disorder, I became depressed. It comes and goes but for a while it has overtaken my life and I can't seem to get over it. I've been living this way for 15 years now and I'm really tired of it.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Working / Worked
- I've only been on for 3 weeks and I can't see a differrence yet. Still feel depressed
Open Menopause
Hi, I am 41 years old and have suffered from anxiety, depression and hormonal migraines most of my life. After my second child was born I have my ovaries removed. It helped my migraines but through me in menopause. I just had an endometrial ablation done but still feel really tired. Could use some support.
Treatments
- Estrogen Patch Working / Worked
- The vivelle dot relieved the hot flashes and night sweats but I still feel hot most of the time and the flashes come and go.
- Provera Working / Worked
- I guess it is working. I stopped the neurontin. I still have mood swings but it goes along with the frustration and depression I feel.
Open Phobia
Suffered sexual abuse as a child. Agoraphobia and panic attacks. Hate highways and traffic. living with this all my life.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Working / Worked
- I have been on many meds but these seem to be working for me now. I have had 6 or 7 suicide attempts but now I have 2 kids I have to live for.
Open Sexual Abuse
I was sexually abused throughout my childhood and still dealing with some issues. I have been through therapy and it has helped. Dealing with depression and panic disorder.
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- Seeing a therapist.
Open Financial Challenges
I have lost 3 jobs due to absences where I suffer from depression and migraines and missed work. Its so hard for me to get a job now. Right now I am working through a staffing agency and don't know how long it will last. I don't make enough money to cover all our bills because the pay is a lot lower than I originally made. I also just went 9 months with no job and now we are so far behind on our bills we can't ever afford groceries. My family has helped out alot but can't depend on them forever.
Treatments
- Cut Up Credit Cards Working / Worked
- I cut up most of cards and consolidated my bills and it worked fine until I lost my job. I still have a couple for emergencies.
- Debt Consolidation Working / Worked
- Also worked great until I lost my job. Now that I'm working again hopefully get back into the program I was in. So far behind on bills I have to get caught up before re-entering program. For now just not paying.
- Holding a Garage Sale Working / Worked
- Worked great also until I started running out of things to sell. I was taking things down off my walls and also selling clothes. Don't make a whole lot but enough to get by.
Open High Blood Pressure
I was dianosed with high blood pressure about 2 months ago. My doctor told me to diet and exercise along with taking my meds.
Treatments
- Benicar Working / Worked
- It lowers my blood pressure but I have tightness in my chest and now having panic attacks again after having them under control for years.
Open Parenting Preschoolers (3-5)
I have a 3 year old daughter. That says it all
Treatments
- Positive Reinforcement Working / Worked
- Although I get angry and frustrated, I always try to end a situation with positive reinforcement. It lets my child know that although things go wrong and I'm upset that it is o.k. to get angry sometimes and that I still love her. I let her show her anger but when its over ask her how she feels or if she needs anything.
Open Eczema
I have a sister and now a daughter who both suffer from eczema. My daughter's case is mild but she still scratches mostly at night while sleeping. She is 3 1/2 years old and I want to find out what I can do to avoid the turmoil that my sister has had to deal with.
Treatments
Open Breakups & Divorce
My husband and I have been married for over 18 years. We have a son almost 13 and a daughter almost 4. We have had a troubled marriage almost from the start. We separated once and after months of counseling got back together and then our son was born. We tried separating again when he was 2 and we saw emotional changes so we stayed together for him. Now years later, its is worse than ever. Now I believe the fighting between us is worse than what the breakup would be.
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Working / Worked
- Worked for a while but he'll never change to meet my needs.
Open Panic Attacks
I have been suffering from panic disorder since I was in high school and now am 42. It got better for some years but now is back really bad.
Treatments
- Effexor Working / Worked
- The only thing that has worked in a long time. Not really working but keeping me sane
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Try to stay positive in a negative world.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Works well for the panic attack. Gets me through the day.
Open Obesity
I was thin all my life and then at 28 I started gaining weight. I guess because of the antidepressants I was on. My doctor put me on a psychotic drug and I gained 20 lbs. I am at my highest weight ever and don't know what to do. I never had to worry before.
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- I have done well at keeping away from sweets. I used to eat pastries at least once a day. I can do without them now.
- Slim-Fast Working / Worked
- I have done this in the past and it worked also for a while. Need to try again.
- South Beach Diet Working / Worked
- I did this not exactly like the book says but I lost 4 lbs in a month but felt like I was starving. So I started back eating.
Open Anger Management
To better manage my anger.
Open Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety
I have suffered from panic attacks and depression for over 20 years. I have had all kinds of treatments including medicine, therapy, hospitalizations etc...I have lost many jobs due to this and feel there is no help in sight.
Open Loneliness
I suffer from panic attacks and depression and feel no one understands me. I feel so alone b/c I can't do things like go shopping etc...I try to get better but I hate going through the panic.
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)I was dianosed with BPD since I was in 20's but never treated until recently. Need support from others who understand what I'm going through
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- I am in DBT group and it helps knowing others have this.
