westwind's Journal

Now that's the big decision that needs to be made. With having to wait so long before the other procedures to take place and as the doctor said, you might need another operation...not going there! It comes down to do I get through it all and leave as planned but later or do I stick it out until the relatives come back in March?????

Pros to staying:

1. A chance to pay off all medical expenses or trim them down as much as possible and try to pay more of my balances off on credit cards and try to rebuild build finances for trip.

2. Economy might be better??? Not holding my breath on that one.

3. Make sure that my health is in fine shape before leaving, rather than flying out out here just to be free.

4. Have time to finish soon to be great-nieces quilt without dragging it from campsite to campsite and getting trashed. It's turned into an eyesore anyway. Really screwed up listening to that woman about red, black and white stimulating babies.  

Cons of staying:

1. Remain in a job that is driving me slowly over the edge in order to keep the insurance. Continue working this terrible shift which is screwing up my mind, body, spirit and soul.

2. Stay living in utter chaos with the remodling and the never ending visiting relatives from hell.

3. Leave in the dead of winter and forget about seeing all that I need to see and since camping, snow and I don't mix all that well togehter I don't think that's an option???

4. Continue to live in fear that the only way I'm ever going to get out of here is in a straight jacket or an urn. And that things are just going to continue to go down hill even worse.

What to do, what to do??? Need some time to think this through properly, but hey, I have the next two to three weeks off to do that.