I'm not the most troubled person in the world, nor am I the most happiest... I know I am only still in my teens, but I have seen more than a kid my age should have in such a short lifespan. I know for a fact that there are so many more people out there in far more worse situations than me. And I tell myself that I should be a little happy compared to others. My parents are divorced, thankfully. When they were married my father was a bastard to my mother. He was cheating on her without her knowing before I was born. When my mom found out in 1994 my father always said that "this was the last time". My mom wanted to believe that every time was the last time because of her own abandonment issues. Most of my childhood is filled with my parents being violent. Mostly with my father getting physical with my mom. Then there is my brother, he's 3 years older than me. He's Bipolar. He use to molest me, or what he liked to call "play doctor". My mother loves him more, even my mom's sister says so and my father suspects it so he feels sorry for me. Growing up my brother use to have these random angry outbursts where he would get physical with anyone/anything near him until he was satisfied. And my parents, I think out of fear, would serve to him. Growing up this way made me think that the only way to get my parents attention was to act out. But this never got through to them, they just kept on dealing with their or my brother's problems. Honestly I thought that this was how family acted until I was about 9 realizing other kids family life. That was when I started to know I was different. When I was in 6th grade my brother was sent to boarding school. My dad was living in a loft since '98 and was planning to wed his mistress in spring '04. Now, my brother is in college. My dad has another family w/ 3 biological kids, I'm adopted but it doesn't bother me somehow. And now its me and my mom living together and we drive each other insane. But we both know we woudnt be able to live without the other. there is so much more i just dont want to get emotional...
I'm not the most troubled person in the world, nor am I the most happiest... I know I am only still in my teens, but I have seen more than a kid my age should have in such a short lifespan. I know for a fact that there are so many more people out there in far more worse situations than me. And I tell myself that I should be a little happy compared to others. My parents are divorced, thankfully. When they were married my father was a bastard to my mother. He was cheating on her without her knowing
My Struggles: Substance dependency, eating disorder, depression, PTSD, abandonment issues and cutting. My Interests: drawing photography writing and reading.
My Struggles: Substance dependency, eating disorder, depression, PTSD, abandonment issues and cutting.
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Ok I dont know how to say this but...
About 2 weeks ago, my 19 year old brother had his closest friend over (he is 21). And it was late and we …
July 6, 2009 10:36pm
I hate my body. I feel FAT. I am FAT. I need to be 95 lbs.
My eating has changed. I try to eat once a day and i excercise at least 3x a week for 1 …
July 6, 2009 12:59am
Lately my depression has been taking the greater part of my life. Every moment of everyday i think about how to kill myself, when to do it and where. …
May 10, 2009 11:38pm
Ok i dont know what is going wrongt with me. Things were going great for me since i left my long term treatment center last June. However, lately (i …
Just dropping bye...miss ya!
Well I hope things get better... And I am always lookin for friends =)
Just wanna give you a little love.
hii i read ur post and wanted to drop you a comment..your life may feel worthless and meaningless..but dnt give up..as cliche as this sounds..time heals you..you just have 2 be willing to let it heal u..w.b xo
Hope you find happiness ^^
I was diagnosed with EDNOS 3 years ago. I wasnt eating much and when i did id either purge or pop diet pills or laxatives. I the fall of 2006 i was hospitalized, i weighed 89 lbs, my height is 5 ft 5 in.
i have been cutting myself since i was 11 and burning myself since i was 12. I want to stop but it is impossible.
My dad had an affair w/ the woman who is now my step mom, since 1994. My mom had her suspicions but didn't questioned. It wasn't til my father told in 1997, he said he would stop seeing her. Mom believed him and for a yr my mom and dad fought over everything. In '98, dad moved out said it was bad for me and my bro to see them fight. But since then both of my parents always talked badly about each other. Now my mom and i live alone and dad has a whole other family that i am now apart of.
I was diagnosed when i was 7 and have been re-evaluated twice since. Honestly i love ADD because this is the only me i know.
