F.U.
October 6, 2009 8:45pm
*sobs*
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Progress
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Goal End Date is Nov 10, 08 380 days ago.
Current Weight (Lbs)
219
Panini
7:47pm, July 28, 2009
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About Me
Panini
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About Me
My name is Ashley, Im 22 and I have a2 year old and 1 old daughter. I figured I would join this site to get some support for my past issues . It seems like when it rains it pours and Im trying to pick up the pieces of my life to be a better mother to my kids and just to be a better person in life. Ive been abused in many ways but I dont want it to make who I am, I need to know im more then the pain.I want to be able to truly live and be happy. I want to learn about myself again and what makes me smile, what I like to do for fun .. just little things that will make a huge difference. Most important I want to heal the little girl in me who has been abused so deeply. I know everyday she still aches and I want to help her stand again, I want to bring the life back to her and be friends with her. I dont want to fight life anymore. So Hopefully this site can help me out. Im really open and willing to talk to anyone. So anyone can message me if they feel like talking. I like to try to be a support to others if I can.. =]---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------> "After awhile you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn that love doesn't mean possession and company doesn't mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child. And you learn to build your roads today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight. After awhile you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure that you really are strong and you really do have worth and you learn and you learn..." By Veronica A. Shoffstall
My name is Ashley, Im 22 and I have a2 year old and 1 old daughter. I figured I would join this site to get some support for my past issues . It seems like when it rains it pours and Im trying to pick up the pieces of my life to be a better mother to my kids and just to be a better person in life. Ive been abused in many ways but I dont want it to make who I am, I need to know im more then the pain.I want to be able to truly live and be happy. I want to learn about myself again and what makes me
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Recent Activity
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5 hugs received, 2 hugs given, 1 discussion post, 1 journal comment
Sunday
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Panini commented on TD66’s journal entry Yanno what??? 4:11pm
Love you too dad…
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Panini gave ShootTheMoon a hug 2:27pm
You never told me if you text or not :(…
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Panini wrote a discussion post in the Breakups & Divorce support group: cloudy days 2:24pm
Hey guys , just checking in, I've taken some time away from ds for awhile and I've missed you guys a…
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Panini gave Rman a funny face 2:16pm
Hey there! How have you been? Miss talking to you, hope this finds you in good spirits…
November 10
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Panini wrote a discussion post in the Breakups & Divorce support group: 10 for 10 taco tuesdays 7:45am
Good morning guys :) My kids have been up since six so I just wanted to say hi to people that speak full…
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Journal
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In the pain Is there healing?
August 2, 2009 6:47pm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CZXHYItXWqE&NR=1The Broken clock is a comfort It helps me sleep tonight Maybe it can …
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A head full of noise.
July 28, 2009 9:29pm
I have so much going on in my head I dont even know where to start.
I know Im not happy with my life right now. Im 22 with 2 daughters, a …
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Just a thought.
July 26, 2009 3:42pm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ZD85-Z5hawI loved you, you made me, hate me. You gave me, hate see, It saved me, and these …
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Why
July 19, 2009 8:51pm
You must have been in a place so dark You couldnt feel the light Reaching for you through that stormy cloud Now here we are gathered in our little …
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Hugbook
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Sorry
Sorry sweetie, I don't text. Plus H shares the phone sometimes so he would be reading EVERYTHING. Yikes!
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A big hug for you. I remember having two little ones and another on the way and not getting much help at all...it was so hard, and I wasn't even working.. Much love to you.
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Hey there, Ash. Do you think moving out is really a viable option right now? With 2 kids and another on the way? I know you do individual therapy. Do you and Danny do couples counseling? Could you?
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Hey Pan...hope you, Danny and the kids are doing well. Hope you are feeling ok and glowing...
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love u
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Goals
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Goal End Date is Sep 19, 09 67 days ago.Current Weight (Lbs)240 -
Support Groups
Close Sexual Abuse
My name is Ashley, I am now 21 but Im still trying to heal from some events that happened to me when I was 16. I moved home with my mother who was addicted to crack and she sold me out on the streets to support her habit, for 3 months before I found a way to get out. Now it effects my relationship and how I feel about myself. It effects me on a daily basis and I need to learn how to let it go.
Treatments
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Close Pregnancy
I have a 13 month old daughter named Semira and shes so wonderful, Im also pregnant with my 2nd daughter who should be arriving June 10th via C section :)
Open Anger Management
I have developed a problem controlling my anger over the past 3 years and Im trying to learn ways to calm down and process it properly before it gets out of hand.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I grew up being emotionally and physically abused by my Aunt. It has contributed a lot to my low self esteem and its made it harder over the years to trust someone. I have in a sense hardened myself and I want to be able to process my baggage and make peace with it.
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- I talk to my boyfriend a lot about what has happened and specific events and it helps me get those emotions out and sometimes let out a good cry if needed.
Open Healthy Relationships
Im just looking to get some advice and tips to help my relationship grow and form better. We have a lot of problems with communication and I really want to work on it. =]
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Self-Injury
I struggled with self abusing for 8 years. I havent done it in a year but I get the urge here and there.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Codependency
Panini hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Parenting Toddlers (1-3)
I have a little girl named Semira , shes AMAZING :)
Treatments
- Patience Working / Worked
Open Breakups & Divorce
My relationship of 3 years just ended. Where do I go now? How do I start over?
Open Eating Disorders
I have a problem with compulsive eating/binge eating. Therapist says I have a problem.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Still working on it.
