Just why?
December 31, 2008 11:15pm
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shazz75
7:19pm, October 18, 2008
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About Me
shazz75
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About Me
I am trying hard to find myself and fit in somewhere since my husband lost his battle with cancer on 12th Jan 08. I'm going through the motions of living but really just existing. This life doesn't feel like mine anymore but I hold onto the hope that it will slowly change and get better.
I am trying hard to find myself and fit in somewhere since my husband lost his battle with cancer on 12th Jan 08. I'm going through the motions of living but really just existing. This life doesn't feel like mine anymore but I hold onto the hope that it will slowly change and get better.
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Interests
I really love the sea and beaches with the waves lapping on the shore on a nice day. I love the sound of the birds singing in the trees, the fluffy clouds on a still day and the warmth of the sun in the summer. I used to like camping, walking, pottering around the house and spending time with my hubby. I don't have anything at this time i enjoy without my love, except the solitude on a quiet day alone with my thoughts, sitting outside on the swing seat we used to share.
I really love the sea and beaches with the waves lapping on the shore on a nice day. I love the sound
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Journal Entry for October 6, 2008
October 6, 2008 9:48am
These next few entries are mainly to help me. I can see how far i have come now and in a few months or more i want to look back on …
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I can feel you
September 11, 2008 7:56pm
Another month gone. this one seemed so very long. It has taken longer to get through. It's weird really because even though it feels like …
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who am I kidding
September 5, 2008 7:55pm
How could I think I could just choose happy and it would happen. Was trying to convince myself I could I think !!!! Truth is I am …
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Moment of Peace
Hi friend, just thinking about you and wanted you to know it. Wishing and hoping you are finding some peace. Great big hugs and lots of love, Judi
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wow cancer, lost of a loved thats rough, yur in my thoughts and prays. all my best.
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Just dropping off a hug, and I wanted to let you know that I pray none of those catastrophic fires are anywhere near you or any of your family. What I've seen on tv is so scary! I hope you and yours are all well and safe. Love, Jan
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Hey there - wanted to check on you - we were following the reports on the wildfires while I was in the UK - I hope you and yours are all okay. I managed to be in England for the worst snowstorm in 20 years - my timing is impeccable - but had a wonderful time nonetheless. I'm just back and I'm trying to catch up with my friends here and I was thinking of you and hoping you were spared from the catastrophe. Drop me a line so I know you're all right, okay? Love and Hugs, Martha
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Hello my dear shazz, just sending a hug and some love and wishes for a good weekend. Hope all is well with you and your family. I do hope things have been resolved with you and your daughter. Sometimes we need to continue to remind the young ones once again that life is too short for us not to put these things behind us as quickly as possible. Blessings to you dear friend, Judi
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Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Partner/SpouseI lost my husband on January 12th and looking for somewhere to chat with others who understand
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- so sick of crying. makes me tired,eyes ache get out of control. I guess it must do something though as it is the most natural thing to do when we are sad
- Getting Angry Not Working
- just makes me feel exactly that angry! and i don't like it
- Grief Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- helpful at start but not down the track a bit. just for venting really can't help me through this
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- i find i am either feeling like my life is in slow motion or i am wearing myself out on something. when i have been busy i guess it has felt a little better in a strange way probably because i feel as if i have achieved something
- Music Not Working
- can't bear to listen to music. tried and just makes me unbearably sad. loved old love songs and country before.
- Reading Not Working
- can't concentrate. would love to be able to read, tried but my mind is only focused on my loss
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- mostly don't want to be around them.It's just to hard
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- DS is just a life saver. people are great and so much support
- Time Not Working
- feel as bad as i did 6 months ago just a different bad
Close Widows & Widowers
My husband passed away on the 12th Jan and I am completely lost. I read where this is normal but it doesn't help. I feel like I'm living in a different world and don't want to see any friends. I feel alone and can't get a grip on what has happened. How can someone just disappear. I worry about him and feel different from everyone else. The days go by but if I don't write down daily journal I can't remember what I did the day before. What a nightmare
Treatments
- Grief Counseling Working / Worked
- helps a little, the closest person I have to understanding what it's like. Just some-one to vent on, can't really offer any ways to make it easier. Just have to keep going however I can. Usually feel bit better after talking with her.
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