Join Now
AliasPandaBaby 
8:26pm, December 31, 2008
APB Journal 12-20-08
I am 1 year and 5 month sober today!
I am thankful I do not have a great desire to drink at all. I know some find this odd one saying they are an alcoholic but you can not stereotype and alcoholic. We come in on levels and desires to drink. I d0 not even remember the last time I thought of a drink but it was not a drink I wanted. I wanted to get drunk and forget the miserable things in life that where weighing to heavy. Instead I pray to my creator Almighty God for help. My prayers in this have never failed me.
I look at the AA program I went to as a stepping stone. The people there could understand what and alcoholic was going through and it is not as easy as just do not drink like many think from lack of being able to relate to the disease. I had been an inactive Christian for many years and never felt I had a purpose without my faith. It was a very sad period in my life. When it rained it poured misgivings and I found myself hopeless and was drinking the pain away so I thought as I made it worse by drinking. I made bad choices, one of them becoming a drunkard which is a one sin in Gods word that you will not inherit ............ 1 Co. 6:10 nor thieves, nor greedy persons nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor exstortioners will inherit Gods Kingdom. 6:11, Yet that is what some of you were. But you have been washed clean, but You have been sanctified, but you have been declared righteous in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ and with the spirit of our God.
Now I rely and put my faith in God to get me through my trials. I have a purpose of being a loyal servant of God and following his will. Good things always follow when you do all things according to Gods will. I am always working on making my works stronger with my faith. Faith without works is dead.
Even with hep c and cirrhosis I still find life purposeful and have the hope of the resurrection without Satan misleading us. With drawing close to God again I have again enjoyed life in my sobriety. I rely on him to get me through the tough times. Many things have changed due to my diseases but looking at God s creation and his mercy, love, and forgiveness I appreciate and feel blessed for being part of Gods creation and Gods child. God has given us so much how can one not find delight in what he has given us to enjoy and be sheppards over…
UPDATED GOALS
Comments
This journal entry is viewable only by AliasPandaBaby's friends.
If you would like to see it, request a friendship.
If you would like to see it, request a friendship.
I was up at 4:00 am I was so excited about today. I will be ready early to get to my sisters to eat and visit. I feel good. My appetite is good and ready to eat. I am even driving myself. A friend is staying at my house and watching Trader and Schmoo is going with me. My sister is a great cook so it will be delicious. Can’t wait to get there and visit.
Comments
-
I hope you have a marvelous time honey! Be sure to rest up afterwards,take care of yourself. I am so happy you are feeling good! Enjoy what God blesses you with,I know you do. Did Schmoo get any turkey? Did You take a doggy bag home for Trader? (giggle)
-
I am so glad you felt so good this day, and hope you had a wonderful time. So glad you were able to drive yourself, that is great, and a sense of freedom, to be out and about on your own. I wish you the very best,, and you are always in my prayers. Love and Hugs. Jan
-
Past Entries
Goal Updated
wow~those verses totally are awesome! Check your messages for the latest with me...
ilapearl
Congratulations on your sobriety. It sounds like you have found much more peace in your life since you have developed such a closeness with the Lord.
dgs
Thank you soo much for sharing this with us Dayz, you truly are an amazing women.
I have been blessed soo many times by God, that he makes it pretty hard not to see that he is my Rock, my best supporter in all that I do.
Before being diagnosed with hep c in 2000., I loved to take a drink, when I worked I would only drink the one day a week, but boy I drank till I could not drink anymore and just pass out.
Till the next friday night after work.
Then The company I was at for 8 years, shut down, and here I am not working, and to much time on my hands, the next few years, I have done quite a few mistakes, and drank way too much, then hep c woke me up one day.
When our doctor told us Richard had contracted hep c, I said to myself, ok he did this in 86 so it's probably when he contracted it.
But then our doctor wanted to test both myself and our daughter.
I was absolutely positive that we were both negative, but to my surprise I was also positive, but not our daughter, again Thank you Lord.
That day, The Thirst I had for alcohol went out the window.
Was I an alcoholic, or not, I've often wondered.
Since they are many in my family, who are so maybe I was one.
I did treatment along with my hubby, we both chased the dragon away and to this day he is still away, from our body.
But I know for sure, that if we would have started drinking post treatment, the virus would have came back.
I'm not saying a year post treatment started drinking, but a few weeks post treatment I am sure the dragon would have shown it's ugly head, so drinking was the last thing on my mind.
Today years later, I can take or leave a glass of wine.
On the 27th, we went to a family gathering at my eldest sister Kris, and they love taking a glass of this and that, which I don't mind at all, no biggy, I rather coffee anytime, but my sister asked me if I wanted a glass of wine, and I told her if you have white I will have one.
So I did, it last me over 3.5 hours, it wasn't even good to the taste.
The Good Lord as made it easy for me in so many ways to let go of alcohol and drugs, which is why I always, always think of him every minute of the day.
I am a firm beleiver that God gives us no more than we can handle, and he does work in Mysterious Ways.
Not to long ago as you know Dayz, I've been a victim of a home invasion, and was beaten up, robbed, ect... the next day, I had already forgave the one person who obviously was the leader of the pack, they were 3 of them.
Why because I saw how drugged up they all were, well the 2 that I saw, and then started to think why this had happened, and what I was supose to do about this, as God servant here on earth.
I did find the reason he choose me, and I will to the best of my knowledge, try to help the culprits, by talking to the Judge when Judgement day comes for them.
They need help, and help is what they should have, not necessary prison, probably they will get a big sentence since they did many other places like mine over the summer, but they do need detox.
So yes Dayz, I do get how loving you are of God he is here for us, and anyone who wants to see it.
You have achieve quite an accomplishment, almost a year and a half of sobriety, is very good, and I am proud of you.
I love you dear friend, and respect, Mckenzie
One day at the time.
May the New Year bring you everything your hearts desires. Mckenzie xoxoox
Mckenzie
Thank you all for your suppport. Thanks for sharing your story Mack. We are the same in many ways.
AliasPandaBaby
Pandy - I'm so very proud of you and also so respect your true faith in God...with him anything is possible. I pray that 2009 is a wonderful year full of many blessings.
FlyingMonkey
Congrats.
vchen
She Shared Our Joy's ...... She Shared Our Sorrow's..... Now GOD Holds Her Hand And Heart As She Once Held Our's..........You Will Be Sadely Missed ZOE!
Love Alway's!
xoxox Bryano xoxoxo
Bryano