Journal Entry for December 21, 2008
December 21, 2008 2:11am
; APB Journal 12-20-08
I am 1 year and 5 month sober today!
I am thankful I do not have a great desire to drink at all. I know some find this odd one saying they are an alcoholic but you can not stereotype and alcoholic. We come in on levels and desires to drink. I d0 not even remember the last time I thought of a drink but it was not a drink I wanted. I wanted to get drunk and forget the miserable things in life that where weighing to heavy. Instead I pray to my creator Almighty God for help. My prayers in this have never failed me.
I look at the AA program I went to as a stepping stone. The people there could understand what and alcoholic was going through and it is not as easy as just do not drink like many think from lack of being able to relate to the disease. I had been an inactive Christian for many years and never felt I had a purpose without my faith. It was a very sad period in my life. When it rained it poured misgivings and I found myself hopeless and was drinking the pain away so I thought as I made it worse by drinking. I made bad choices, one of them becoming a drunkard which is a one sin in Gods word that you will not inherit ............ 1 Co. 6:10 nor thieves, nor greedy persons nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor exstortioners will inherit Gods Kingdom. 6:11, Yet that is what some of you were. But you have been washed clean, but You have been sanctified, but you have been declared righteous in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ and with the spirit of our God.
Now I rely and put my faith in God to get me through my trials. I have a purpose of being a loyal servant of God and following his will. Good things always follow when you do all things according to Gods will. I am always working on making my works stronger with my faith. Faith without works is dead.
Even with hep c and cirrhosis I still find life purposeful and have the hope of the resurrection without Satan misleading us. With drawing close to God again I have again enjoyed life in my sobriety. I rely on him to get me through the tough times. Many things have changed due to my diseases but looking at God s creation and his mercy, love, and forgiveness I appreciate and feel blessed for being part of Gods creation and Gods child. God has given us so much how can one not find delight in what he has given us to enjoy and be sheppards over…
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