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KerriLynn 
Got home a while ago and am ready for this day to end. I go see one of my doctors tomorrow and it never seems soon enough. I love my husband and kids but some days it just seems too much. I have not cut in almost 2 years but the urge has come back so strong in the last week. I have not yet but I need something to release the pain. My husband does not understand and so i keep it to myself. If only I could be stable and know for sure the next day will be better. I try to tell myself this but most days i know it is a lie. How do I continue when I know everyone is watching my every move making sure i dont mess up. My mother in law trys to help but somedays I dont think she really understands my pain. I have never had a closer relationship than i do with my mother in law especially not my mom. While my hubby was in Iraq she was my support and never left my side. This burdon that i carry is nothing i want. I want to be normal and health. I am tired of having to wake up to irritability, crabbyness or even being able to fall asleep.
