BiTeen012's Journal

ok so lets see so far ive driven myself up a wall today.i got college on my mind and its alittle nerve ranking.i also have her on my mind so im staying sane.update for all you who know.nothing has changed.we still talk and wht not and she makes me smile daily.she is still with him but somethings you cant control.(yet) im really writing this to show people how i think.

think of my mind as a maze.this maze consist of more doors than the internet.it consist of more turns than the rotation of the globe.it is more changing than anything you could possibly think of. think of my mind as this: a murder is standing in the street with a victim in his hands and knife to her throat.he is surrounded by snipers and swat.my mind is every sniper every swat member the murder and the victim.i think from everyone of those angles.and i have to chose which is the right one and which im going to do.

that is why im so stuck on her right now.she is the murder and the victim is me.im thinking from the points of should i go and risk the woman?should i shot at his head and hope the bullet misses her?should i wait and see wht happens?should i run out screaming and shoting in the air like a wild man? should i jjust give up and hope for the best?should i fight back against the person(feelings) who holds me here in the line of fire?

thats why im always so confused when it comes to her.

well i hope yall learned something from reading this.