gfander

Close Multiple Myeloma

My story will probably sound minor compared to what most people are going through and I hate to sound like I am complaining. The stress that I am under while my husband is taking chemo is almost unbearable at times. When he is on Decadron it completely makes him into a different man than who I know and what I am accustomed to. The Decadron makes him a very angry man and he takes the anger out on me, not physically, but verbally and mentally. He's a terrific person and has great determination, but I feel that I am constantly walking on egg shells. He has 3 sons by his first wife (deceased) and they are not visible or available as much as he would like. I have one son by a former marriage (divorced) and my husband acts like he hates my son and has told me so. He doesn't even like for my two granddaughters to come around because he is jealous of what little time I spend with them. He still goes to his office a few hours each day when he is up to it and I work full time. I lost my mother 4 years ago to leukemia and at the time of her death I was taking care of her in our home with the help of Hospice and a sitter while I worked. I never had a chance to mourn my own mother's death and I thinkof her constantly. She was an angel to take care of and I miss her terribly. My problem is how to deal with my husband's anger. He has been on about 8 different chemo meds and each time they work for a while and then stop working and we have to try something else.