Journal

The past week trying to keep my blood pressure under control by eating well, and cutting down my sodium in take has been, well, no difference..lol.  My eating habits havent changed, just dont add salt....haha, and im gaining weight quite fast, which is unusual for me seein as how I dont gain easily.  The other day was probably the worst it has ever been, my pressure was so high my wedding ring and another ring i wore got too painful to wear, and i couldnt get them off.  I had asked my boss if she had any lotion to help, and that was still painful.  But today my pressure has remained even I guess.  My rings fit now...lol, and I feel rested and ready for work monday! 

I had a talk with Jeff on the 4th of July, most of the talk was about how much more responsiblility we have taken on, etc etc.  Jeff is 21, and I'm 25, 26 in 2 months and he is pretty much new at EVERYTHING.  Generally he is worried about sinking financially, or failing at life all together.  Because of his "newness", we both have a hard time meeting eye to eye, and thats the main problem is our age gap.  Never thought i would be with someone so "inexperienced" at life, however he can kick the shit out of me at his profession, and I am quite proud of him and what he has accomplished thus far.  With all that said, at the end of the talk, I told him that as much shit I've been through over the years, it will not allow me to fail, and the lessons ive learned have taught me to take things much more seriously now days.  Told him when I was younger, I was bull headed, and hot tempered and that I have a sense of purpose now. A way to use my anger and assertiveness in a positive way, (moving up, taking care of serious business).  OUR new mission is the welfare, and safety of this family. Told him that the truth is, is that my life belongs to him and this family.  Now that I am drug free, have an actual reputation, and a good job at stake as well as a family to look over I feel like a new man!  Do yourself a favor, (people reading this), read my status message.

sooooo the previous entry is a lil old, and as for the car, I was comming home from work and the power steering exploded, taking out the coolant systems in the process...its gonna take a miracle to get her up and running again! LOL....anyway, things are getting better and better, only wish i could share it, but honestly from what i have been through for the past 7 years, I think i deserve a lil break.  I also wont forget all of the family members, friends who helped me a long the way.  Im also trying to remember to raise and lower the new flag as per law/military guidelines, and as a vet I would feel horrible if i forgot..haha.  Soooo, we were packing up my printer at the old house and brought it here, turns out the ink leaked all over the clothes, etc in the box.  Once I finished cleaning it up I thought I got all of it until an hour later my kitten came up to me with ink all over her face (keep in mind she is pure white)...lol, I couldnt get mad for laughin! Anyway, thought it was time for an update...