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dreadaffodil 
3:37pm, August 26, 2008
I've been telling myself if I clean the house, it will somehow improve my mood. I have Attention Deficit Disorder..... can you tell? ha heh. Laugh so you don't have to cry. Cleaning seems so boring. I think I'll go out instead. But when I get back I'll be reminded that I should of stay home and cleaned. I used to get high, so that I would have the energy to do it. Now that I'm clean, I have to rely on my enthusiasm alone.
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Sweetie, you are not alone. I suffer with depression and house cleaning is always difficult. I tell myself that if I just do it, there will be less to do tomorrow and I will even feel better in a clean home. That does not mean I scrub my floors every day. I also see one task at a time in and look no further. That seems to help me. If I get to another one great if not, that is O.K. too. I hope this has helped. You have accomplished so much and cleaning is definitely not as good for the soul as getting outside and watching the birds, playing with your daughter, or just taking a nice walk in a park. Your story has touched my heart. Thank you for sharing.
sunshinehug
Thank You :). I wrote a personal essay for myself on why to clean or not to clean. It seemed to help motivate me after I made myself more aware of why I should. I think that cleaning has a way of cleansing your body and soul. I've had some serious problems with depression and anxiety in the past(less frequently now). I understand how debilitating it can be. My doctor prescribed me all kind of meds that seemed to make it worse along with med's for my ADD. I believe that's what started my downslide into using meth again after being sober for 4 years. My doctor told me years ago that eating right and exercising is the best thing for anxiety and depression. It's true. Drinking enough water also helps with energy.
How's your daughter doing?
~ Drea
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