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dipcydoodle 
These last two weeks have been hell. My mom and i Havent really had the closest relationship while i was growing up. But the last few years things have been gettin better. Really good actually. We started to become friends finally. 2 weeks ago i found out she had cancer. I had just seen her for Easter and she looked like nomal mom. And then all of a sudden cancer. She has non small cell lung cancer. It has spread to her liver and brain already. in just those few short weeks she went from looking like good old mom to someone i dont recognize. Every day I cry a for her. I cry for me and i cry for my new little boy that may never know his grandma. there are so many things that I need her for. She cries a lot now. She cries because she hates what she has done to her kids. I dont blame her for being sick. I dont think she did it on purpose, but as a mom I guess I understand what she means when she says that. I know that she is thinking that she will be forgotten by all of us, that we are mad at her, that we think she did this to us. But all that i keep thinking is that my mommy is sick. Im going to lose my mom. I cant stand the thought of seeing her in this much pain. It has only been 2 weeks and i am already on antidepressents and anti anxiety medicine. And its only just begun. She is so young to leave now. I know that I will not be able to handle this when things start to happen, when things start to come to an end. What do I do?
