Seconchance's Journal

I have had nothing but heartache form every men in my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel liek i am a failure in life and i am a failure in anything i ever do!!!! I need emothional help!!!!!! i haven't had a companion of ysort in 3 years because i don't want anyone to hurt my son like i have been hurt!! I am trying to be a mom and a dad and a friend to a 2 year old who don't want to listen to me~~~ I don't want to let him live a shadowed life but i am soooo scared with life and how dangerous it is for him!! I fgeel like if am afraid of everything also how can i let him live a normal life?? But on teh other hand i am very biog on if he does something i am not afrid to let him fall or you know him to learn his lesson!! I don't handle him with kid gloves (now i would never klet him HURT himself of course) just if he is edging himself away of his bed persay and i say your gonna fall and yep he falls well i told you so!!

i am sooooo emaotionalyy distrort that i feel i have nothing to offer anyone anyway!! and before i was pregnant i was beautiful in great shape and alot of men interested in me!! and i wanted to get to kwo people wanted to go out and party and injoy life!! Well now i am afraind to leave my son and have fun!! i feel like i am adonadoning him like so many have done inmy life but i feel i need time away from hoim!! But i can't!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh i am so super stressed