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dncn4lyfe77 
10:25pm, November 11, 2009
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Well since school started it's been interesting. Lots of urges to SI but I've still stayed strong thank god. It will be 11 months on the 23rd...Almost to a year. I gotta keep this up.
Me and Dustin are back on decent terms. Still can't trust him but that's going to take time, if I can at all. I told him this is his last shot. That I'm being more than generous. He wrote me a 4 page letter apalogising for everything he's done, and he didn't once talk about himself and how he was miserable. Mind you, I'm taking this all with a grain of salt.
idk
thats all for now
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Not cut in 2009
Progress 90%
Encouragements: 3
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Manic episode...full fledged
bright one over here asked the pdoc if i could wean off depakote...he said yes....I did, and I started to lose weight like i wanted so i kept going even though i felt like shit....now its kicking me in the ass
plus school stress
and my daughters daycare burned down. noone got hurt but I'm trying to find a perminant babysitter for her which is hard to find. Shes been passing back and forth between people....i hate it...she had such a great structure and routine and lots of kids her age....ug
idk
i hate being bipolar
i wanna cut
but i cant
i wont
10 months down the drain is NOT an option
UPDATED GOALS
Not cut in 2009
Progress 80%
Encouragements: 3
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Correct, i't's simply not an option!!!
Kids are very flexible. Emma will be fine. Keep looking for something consistent but don't beat yourself up over it. She'll be okay.
You'll be ok too. What goes up must come down. Hang in there. Let me know if you need to borrow my parachute.
Love you kiddo.
xoxo
Joanne
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Right on! It is NOT an option! You have been doing great..as Joanne writes, kids are extremely flexible. DO not fret over it. Focus on school. It may be easier to find another daycare, as well as cheaper, than an individual sitter. Plus, you seem to have had a good experience with the old..soemthign to consider.Good luck!
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im glad you are hanging in there. i lost my love (kali2003) because of an arguement and my bipolar took over and i said something terrible. i regret it so much and wish i could take it back, be forgiven or even talk to her about it. but she has shut me out im sure shut down emotionally. life sucks, BUT you are cut free and im so damn proud!!! great job!!
djg123
You have come so far! Look at that goal slider! You'll make it (and school stress...yup...it's there...and you are building healthy defenses to make good choices!!) Yay, you!
frogerina
That is wonderful 11 months...keep up the good work!
I am so proud of what you are accomplishing!
Love and prayers!
Rhea
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