Journal Entry for November 18, 2009
November 18, 2009 9:14pm
Progress
10 %
Goal End Date is Apr 4, 09 231 days ago.
Current Weight (Lbs)
138
dncn4lyfe77
10:25pm, November 11, 2009
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About Me
dncn4lyfe77
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About Me
My name's Sarah. I'm 21. I have a baby girl named Emma Jade, born 2/19/08 I'm a single mom and diagnosed with Bipolar I. I self-injure, and am trying to stop. I dropped nursing and now I'm pursuing a degree in biotechnology. I hope this is it for me, I can't really afford to put around much longer and figure out what I want to do with my life. Though at 21 it's hard to know I guess. You grow up fast once you have a child. Generally I'm happy with life, I have an amazing boyfriend who loves me and my daughter, a great support system, I'm stable when it comes to bipolar disorder and I'm almost 1 year free of SI!!!
My name's Sarah. I'm 21. I have a baby girl named Emma Jade, born 2/19/08 I'm a single mom and diagnosed with Bipolar I. I self-injure, and am trying to stop. I dropped nursing and now I'm pursuing a degree in biotechnology. I hope this is it for me, I can't really afford to put around much longer and figure out what I want to do with my life. Though at 21 it's hard to know I guess. You grow up fast once you have a child. Generally I'm happy with life, I have an amazing boyfriend who loves me and
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Interests
Anything medically related really
Anything medically related really
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Recent Activity
Recently:
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10 hugs received, 6 hugs given, 1 discussion post
Wednesday
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dncn4lyfe77 wrote a discussion post in the Parenting Toddlers (1-3) support group: a few questions 9:53pm
Question 1: My daughter has been drinking nothing but apple juice (watered down) for probably 2-3 weeks…
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dncn4lyfe77 gave princessatmey a hug 9:33pm
pleasepleaseplease try to stop cutting, once you get sucked in its so hard to stop :( feel better ok?…
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dncn4lyfe77 wrote a journal entry updating their Get down to 120lbs goal 9:14pm
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dncn4lyfe77 changed their mood to Horrible 9:12pm
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dncn4lyfe77 gave blujay1 a hug 9:12pm
:D ty, 3 more days till 1 year woottttt…
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Journal
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An update
October 16, 2009 1:39pm
Well since school started it's been interesting. Lots of urges to SI but I've still stayed strong thank god. It will be 11 months on the …
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Gahhhhhhh
September 27, 2009 11:48pm
Manic episode...full fledged
bright one over here asked the pdoc if i could wean off depakote...he said yes....I did, and I started to lose …
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yayyyy
August 28, 2009 10:57pm
It's getting easier every day. I love this. It's so much easier to just not worry about hiding the cuts, cleaning them, and feeling dependent …
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coming off depakote....paird with exercise...hope it works :(
August 24, 2009 1:56pm
Gah.
I want my body back.
I weigh as much as I did when I was about to have Emma.
Fantastic.
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Hugbook
Hug
Thanks. Pls read my journal entry for today. Did they remove my messages from your mailbox too?I have several confirmations that they are going to my friends' mail, and removing my personal e-mails! Good grief. I would not be surprised if they closed my account altogether. Please send me a personal e-mail address just in case!
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Hug
Thanks. Pls read my journal entry for today. Did they remove my messages from your mailbox too?I have several confirmations that they are going to my friends' mail, and removing my personal e-mails! Good grief. I would not be surprised if they closed my account altogether. Please send me a personal e-mail address just in case!
Celebration
.Come join our party for all that have come home.......it is posted in the Families of Prisoners Group....party is for this weekend!
Post your loved one on the list for celebrations list for the party then come by and enjoy yourselves and let them all revel in your good fortune! going to be fun! It is for all whom will also come home this year.....so spread the word please so lots of people will come!
This time I think we are going to have a cookout and hayride! Bring your imaginations to make it more fun!
Love you all!!
Love Rhea-
High Five
I am so proud u have made it 11 months without SI.
you go girl!! 
Flower
ope u hv a restful, peaceful, & sweet sleep. blessings, hugs & lol. bess
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
I'm diagnosed with Bipolar I, and have been since I was 17. They thought I was depressed (I had been self injuring for 2 years at that point) but I kind of went super manic when they put me on more celexa. They finally got me straightened out and stable for a few years, then I got pregnant. I was fine untill I had my baby girl. Now with the whole post partum thing, it's kinda been hell. My psychiatrist is helping me through though, and I'm trying some new meds. Still haven't kicked the SI though
Treatments
- Abilify Somewhat Helpful
- It works to keep me not so manic, but it makes me irritable if I go over 10mg Side effects: not as hungry....just feeling funny
- Celexa Not Working
- I used to be on it. It worked for a little bit then set off my mania. Coming off of it was a BITCH. Google "brain shivers" or "SSRI withdrawal syndrome"
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Amazing. I don't know what I would do without it.
- Geodon Somewhat Helpful
- It took my mania away and was really helpful almost immediately but I was a total space cadet when I was on it. That's why I came off it. I couldn't stand it.
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- I've been on it for almost 2 years. Very good at keeping me stable. Works best for the depression. No side effects other than it taste like crap
- Lithium Not Working
- I had a rare reaction to it. My body couldn't tolerate it. All that happened to me was I was thirsty all the time, shook a lot and wasn't hungry.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Very good at taking the edge off manic aggression. You'll sleep until next tuesday though :)
- Depakote Working / Worked
- Made me gain 15 lbs so im weaning off of it but it works well
Close Self-Injury
I'm Sarah, I've been SI'ing for 3 years now. I'm trying to stop again. I didn't cut the whole time I was pregnant but recently had a bout of a bad time with SI. I'm aiming for 1 week SI free, then 2 then 3....baby steps
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I love my psychiatrist
- Squeezing Ice Working / Worked
- Works REALLY well
- Talking Working / Worked
- I'm a member of buslist.org, a site for people that SI. It's kind of like this group but a whole site. It's nice.
- Tattoos Working / Worked
- I got one after 100 days SI free. It was a phoenix
Open Parenting Newborns & Infants (0-1)
I have a baby girl named Emma Jade who was born 2-19-08
Treatments
Open Brain / CNS Tumors
Type: OtherMy dad got diagnosed with a brain tumor. Turned out it was coming from the lining of his brain and it wasn't cancer (thank God)
Open Post Partum Depression
I'm a mother of a baby girl named Emma Jade born 2/19/08. I'm dealing with Bipolar I disorder and PPD.
Treatments
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Asthma
Type: Exercise-Induced AsthmaI'm sarah, I've had asthma since I was 12. It's well controlled right now but flairs up with exercise mostly
Treatments
Open Rape
My (ex) boyfriend of 2 years raped me..
Open Single Parenting
Single mom of a beautiful baby girl. Her father is in Shock Camp for drug charges....6 felonies ( I sure know how to pick them)...If he messes this up its 2 years in state prison
Open Healthy Sex
dncn4lyfe77 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Family & Friends of Bipolar
I have bipolar I disorder, and figured I'd join so you can message me with any questions you might have, and so I can give you an insider's view if thats ok :)
Open Families of Prisoners
My baby's father is in jail right now. His next court date is tomorrow, he might get out but we don't know yet.
Treatments
Open Lactose Intolerance
I'm lactose intolerant? lol that's about it
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- I don't eat ice cream without my lactose pills
- Lactaid Working / Worked
- I use Lactaid Pills, so that you can eat dairy
Open Parenting Toddlers (1-3)
My little baby girl Emma Jade was born on 2/19/08.
Treatments
- Patience Working / Worked
- ha, well I'm trying that one
- Positive Reinforcement Working / Worked
- Definitely working. I get all smiles when I do that, instead of tears and going straight back to the offending behavior/object
Open Pregnancy - Teens
I was a teen mother, I had my baby girl at 19. I'm almost 21 now
Open Pre-menstrual Syndrome (PMS)
I have PMDD, aka superbad pms. Ick.Plus bipolar, YAY... My periods have always been really heavy and I get really sick too
Treatments
- Naproxen Not Working
- Oral Contraceptives Somewhat Helpful
- it worked when i was on it.....kind of....mellowed me out a little
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- my god on earth! I take it as soon as I start feeling symptoms and keep taking it until i get my period
Open Skin Cancer
Type: OtherI have 3 "elongating skin lesions"...I have to go to the derm. No biopsy yet....Im so scared....
Open Weight Loss For Teens
Post baby body has to go haha, I'm on the boarder of "overweight" according to BMI...I was a comfortable 120 lbs before Emma (im 5ft 2) and now 140. I'm starting to eat healthier and exercise more. I want to get back to 120
Open Cervical Cancer
Had an abnormal pap smear....they want to do a coloscopy on the 17th...im scared
Treatments
- Colposcopy Considering
- Having one on the 17th
