emmiesmom's Journal

Here goes i have not written for a while and while i have been busy i have thought lots about what to say here.

 First i did not get that car i looked at while it was a good price i could not afford everything it took to fix it.

 Second thing is i ended up not getting the other car right now either because the father of my children who i love with all my heart had a heart attack on Friday Morning so i jumped the plane and went to be with him. He is doing good but man what a scare that was to hear about this and not knowing what was what with him.

 So i get home and had a fight with his mother who has the opinion that her daughter should have gone with and when i asked why well that is her brother yes i agreed it is but why should she go and not me?

 My answer was well you are not married and you are not family while we are so that is why she should have gone even if it was to go along like i am going to do something and lie about him or what is going on with his care.

 so needless to say i was not happy with this and she called not 1 time to argue but like 3 times go figure her out i can't.

 I am so tired of these people treating me like shit and not giving me respect for trying to put up with thier stuff and yet they figure i should marry Laurence like i would but they got to stay out of things when i am trying to do the right hting for them.

 Like i borrowed the money to go there and had to borrow money to get home thankfully i had a place to stay while i was there  what a royal bunch of idiots are my inlaws what do i do about them? and why am i not family? i have no idea at all.

I told them that my kids are his children if she likes it or not and be damed if she or any one was going to tell me i don't belong.

 laurence told his driving partner to call me and our oldest daughter first and that i would look after things from there so i did but they still think they should have been called first and formost and to hell with me my kids and grandkids don't belong i am so angry at them i don't know what to do but i can't let him know about it until he is stronger and then maybe i will tell him maybe i won't they do this each and every time there is an emergency with any one.

 I just feel like giving up on 36 years with this man,i was 9 he was 15, but it is so very ard to do when i don't want to but the family has to get a life.

 AND WHAT DOES BEING MARRIED HAVE TO DO WITH ANYTHING I WONDER????