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emmiesmom 
8:56pm, July 27, 2009
Usually saturdays are my bingo nights, well my kids decided they wanted to go to the movies and they whined well not the youngest one but the oldest one has a way of manipulation that just kills me quickly.
it starts as mom i want to go to the movie or what ever it is and then it carries on with well i want to see/do this so badly.
then its well i did not want to force you to do what you did not want to do mom.
so i took them to the movie and now i am pissed because i spent my bingo money on tickets to see the movie and when i tried to explain it like this.
this is the last Saturday that i am giving up when you know full well that this is my bingo night.
so needless to say my mother is pissed and my girl is in a whiny mood like i am not allowed to have feelings or wants yeah right.
the movie was not too bad but i guess i am pissed at my self that i caved in to the whining and manipulation when today i am not feeling too good, i am sad and it seems that they do this when they know i am not in a good frame of mind, so when i try to explain they get defensive so now i don't know how to say it right but basically i need my night out once a week and if i can't have that then i don't know what else.
like i said i am so pissed at them for manipulating me into doing what i did not want to do but still i am angry at my self for falling to it again.
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you did what anyone would do , you felt bad because they wanted to go to the movies so you gave in .but you really do need at least one night a week just for yourself , especially if your feeling down and depressed . i used to love my bingo night , i went every saturday night in okla . i'v been once here and there was to much smoke for me . i was so hooked when i was in okla. that if i didn't get my bingo night i cried , thats when i realized i had a problem .lol xoxxx
dizzylizzie
Here they are not allowed to smoke in any bingo hall.
If i don't have the money to go oh well but when i do have money i do something on a Saturday evening even just go shopping in the city but that is too far with the price of gas here now man i can't believe it it is now around 5 .85 cents a gallon
emmiesmom