emmiesmom's Journal

 Well i have been feeling great lately, i have gotten a lot of things sorted out for my self and figured out why i was hurting my girls dad.

 See we split up along time ago and when he left he was my whole life besides my girls, i always figured we would be together for ever. Well for ever lasted for 10 years and 2 kids and then times got bad and we split he went his way for 10 years and then he came back when my oldest was 15 on her birthday to be exact.

 We had a ball did stuff together and enjoyed our time together. He would leave to go home ( he lives 18 hours away from us) i was just angry i didn't know why but i was angry at him and would fight with him and then it would make me feel worse.

 I finally figured out why this is happening, years ago when he left i was so hurt that i gues i made a promise that if i ever saw him again i would make him hurt as bad as i did when he left.

 I came clean with him last month and we have started to get back on track for our selves and our children i don't know if we would get back together or if we will i just want a friend right now so this is where we are at as friends.