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lucindamartinez 
7:43pm, October 31, 2008
Rev 2:17 "To him that overcometh will I give a white stone," etc. It was a custom among the ancients to give their votes by white or black stones: with these they condemned the guilty, with these they acquitted the innocent. In allusion to this ancient custom, our Lord promises to give the spiritual conqueror the white stone of absolution or approbation; and inseparably connected with it a new name of dignity and honor, even that of a child of God and heir of glory, which is known only to himself, or the inhabitants of that world to which he shall be admitted and who have already received it.
**Ran across this today in study and wanted to save it for further thought. I deserve a white stone, I will continue to strive for a white stone.....and I will ACCEPT a white stone if and when it is presented to me.
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Nope...not piles of leaves, although I have those also. Ever feel like there are piles and piles of circumstances mounting on top of you? I kind of feel that way today. Maybe overwhelmed a little bit, mostly because I don't feel well I think. I have a tooth that is bothering me (still avoiding the dentist....guess that's gonna change pretty quick). Have cramps...Fun! Dealing with the teens...also much Fun! Home school for one of them...lots of pressure there from the school and the teen himself. Regular family expectations of running the house and such...seem to never get myself caught up. Business...dont' get me started. Many expectations to and from employees...much like having more children sometimes. Animals...I sure do miss my big doggie. The new little guy is cool...but he's not my big old Corey. Well...yeah, there's more. Several other unmentionables that feel ever so burdensome on this particular day. I think I'm in a bit of a funk....but I think that I'll try to think again and come up with something better. Tomorrow anyway. I can do it. Tomorrow is a fresh new day. ; )
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Life can be unbearably overwhelming at times. Find a way to relax, breathe, recollect yourself. Remove yourself from the middle of the chaos--at least mentally. That saying, "When it rains, it pours," is true...big hugs for you girly...you CAN do it!
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It has been several days since you posted this, I hope you are feeling better. I know I can really get into a funk when my pain is high or I just feel 'ill' all over. I think those days are just as terrible as the pain, or often times just the time of the week and the weather. But the good thing is these times do pass. Keep your head up!
My female border collie/lab mix has been very ill for the past three days. I took her to the vet yesterday and returned with her this morning to review the lab results with the vet. It turns out that she had extensive cancer in her abdomen. It was very widespread. The vet said that she could operate, but that the prognosis was very grim and that she gave her less than a 5% chance, even then would be the very real possibility of recurrence or death from infection due to her weakened state. Although it breaks my heart, I had to spare her going through all of that additional suffering for nothing. I am very sad and I miss my big doggie very much already! RIP Corey. We will miss you very much. Play with your brother Chango in Heaven until we all meet up again. 
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Can relate to the loss of a best friend. Glad you have a rational vet, and that Corey is pain free and at peace!
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My dearest gentle Lucinda ... am so very sad to hear of the loss of your loving companion, Corey. Bless you for taking such excellent care of her and for humanely and tenderly being with her as her journey continues beyond our world. It takes great love to do this and I'm glad she had you as a mommy and a friend. Sorry for your loss, sweetie ... can relate to it on a personal level. (((Comforting HHHUGGSSS))) Ranae
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Lucinda, I lost my dog last year and I can relate to your sadness. I am so sorry you had to put her down. I will keep you in my thoughts throughout this week as I know how hard it is to lose such a valued member of the family. Let me know if there is anything I can do.
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im so terribly sorry. i think its best that puppy didnt suffer either. you are a good doggy mommy. my aunt would put her dogs in diapers until they passed on their own cuz she just could make the choice to put them down.. it takes a lot of courage and love to make that choice. hugs to you and prayers to you that your sadness will be relieved.
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Thank you so much everyone for your kindness. Some days are harder than others, but I know that I will pull through. ; )
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Girl, that is so sad!! I've just recently went thru some pet losses---it's hard! They become part of your family. So sorry for your loss. Keep those fond memories close!
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What about this white stone is so difficult. What is so hard to understand that I haven't somehow deserved every rotten thing that I have ever gotten in this life? Why oh why can I not just put my hand out for the white stone that is rightfully mine?
lucindamartinez
I understand how frustrating it is to accept that you are not the guilty party. Part of me is stuck in the same rut that you are. Logically, we know that we are not guilty. But the what if's overwhelm us and the guilt creeps back in at the most unexpected moments. I am sorry that you are having such a hard time with this. I understand your frustration and desperation. But you can do it!! I believe in you!!! :D Never give up trying to reach your hand out to that white stone, because it will taste SOOOO sweet the day you accept it. Keep pushing forward.
Hugs to you!
Stephanie
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