archangels's Journal

Right now i,m knackered kit,s been a very very long day,mum has had all sorts done to her,she is very yellow ,looking and she is now also under the care of a liver specialist,she is still very sedated and the doctor came to speak to me and my nan,he explained that mum shouldn,t have done what she did [i,e stopping all her med,s] he told us mum is still not outta the woods her blood pressure is all over the place,one minute it,s very low the next it,s very high,she also is having big dose,s of morphine cuz she stopped the meds her pain got so bad that unbenown to us she had plunged a carving knife through her shoulder so she,s had to restiched she,s got 27stitches  and the pain management will be coming round tomorrow and i,d better not see that pleb who lieed to her by building her up with a load of bloody lies! my nan has told me not to flip when or if i see the doc who told her about this pump cuz i,ve told her if i see him i,ll smack him one see how he likes to be hurting 24/7 it ain,t fair! why tell her then turn his back to her when she doe,s as she,s asked? mum,s renal surgeon has also been round and he,s been fantastic,he has explained to mum that part of her yellow skin is cuz of not having enough of her drugs and with drawing herself from her drugs she,s gotta take for dialysis,and her other medical problem,s,you,d think these doctors would give her a break wouldn,t you? but not this bunch of quacks! cuz thats what they are bloody quack,s! no wonder mum,s had a gutfull of hospitals and doctors pulling and poking her about!

Well i,m gonna have to go cuz i,ve gotta ring the hospital again just to make sure she,s ok,i thank you all for your prayers, right now one of my main prayers is that my mum will get this pump she so desperatly needs, she,s starting to give up now she told me i,m sorry son that i haven,t been the mum i should have been to you i hope maybe one day i,ll be free from this hell i,m in cuz it,s not fair on you to be worrying like this at your age,you should be going out with your mates without worrying about me,i,m sorry son,that upset me,i told her don,t worry mum i don,t mind helping you out it doesn,t bother me,please don,t feel your a burden to me cuz your not! i love you and you have there  been there many many times you have sat up with me all night,so please don,t worry mum it doesn,t bother me,i just want you to do as your told and hopefully you,ll be home again soon,so mum when your feeling better take note I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT AND YOU HAVE BEEN THERE WHEN I HAVE NEEDED YOU SO STOP BEING SILLY I LOVE YOU IF I DIDN,T LOVE YOU I WOULDN,T BE WRITING THIS SO GET BETTER AND COME HOME! I LOVE YOU NOW AND FOREVER CALLUM XXXX