archangels's Journal

I could use a bit of advice right now,i have a raging toothache and it looks as if it is a abcess i am on antibiotic,s and i am on morphine anyway for my pain,however nothing seem,s to be working,i have tried bongella ambasol you name it i,ve tried it,it is making me misrable and i am angry at the doctor who caused all of this! if he haden,t of smashed several of my teeth i am in a lot of pain and it,s not easing up,it,s making me ratty and i can,t do my teeth cuz my mouth is too painful,i would gladly have a bloody kidney infection than this hell but i haven,t got any kidneys right now i could use them to have an infection!!! i,m trying to remain upbeat but i feel like crying with this pain! it,s not often i cry but lord know,s right now i could! i,ve got the nurse with me and she,s just told me i,ve gota very hi temp,i wonder why??? the nurse just confirmed that i don,t have one but two abcesses as well as all my lower gum,s are full of ulcer,s,as if thats not enough i,ve  got yet another infection not just in my mouth but it could be anywhere,so i,m not having a great time at the minute and i have to admit i,m in the right place cuz i feel really rough and i would give anything just to get some sleep and get rid of this pain!.

Callum came to see me today i asked if he,d heard from his father he told me,no mum but wait until it,s due my pay he,ll suddenly be asking if i,d like to go for a drink with him as he usually does, he then said i know we clash alot mum but i really do love you and no matter what if you need me i,ll always be here for you,as for my dad? he can go to hell for all i care,all he ever wants is his money,when on the rare occation,s they go out together all his dad does is tell him all his problem,s that he,s having either with the whore who is was supposed to be done with! but he,s allowing her to come and stay with him for a week yeah right! even callum no longer believe,s him,he,ll tell callum i,m done with her then in the next breath he,ll tell callum all about the hassle she,s giving him,callum come,s home stressed when he meet,s up with his father,i try not to say too much as i don,t want callum thinking he can,t get away from both mine and his dad,s problem,s,so i very rarely talk about his dad and hopefully by christmas me and his dad will no longer be married,he had the nerve to tell callum i may be just going thru a mid life crisis and i may wanna come back!! callum just looked at him and told him dad i think you,ll find that mum won,t take you back! his dad said i think she will cuz she needs me!!! callum was livid and he told me about it,i just told him don,t get het up about it your dad is just a bit mixed up,in fact if i honest wanna tell him to tell his dad to go mto hell! but i don,t and i keep my gob shut.

Well folks they,ve just had a dentist in to see me i do have abcesse,s but not two i,ve got several according to the dentist! and i,ve got an infected stump of part of one of my teeth which a doctor knocked out! i,ve just had the nurse put up a bag of antibiotic,s onto my drip hopefully it will stop the pain! i,ve also gotta bad taste in my mouth,sorry for banging on about my toothache but it,s either my telling you or pacing up and down in my room and possibly disconnecting myself from all my drip,s and painpump,so if you,ve ever had an infected tooth believe me i understand! i hope you who tread this are all ok? take care my friends and thank you for being very very good friends shaz xxx