archangels's Journal

I have really had a gutfull of doctor,s who lie and little boy,s who think they know your condition more than you do? i am cheesed off with being poked prodded and empty promise,s i am sick and tired of being a guinea pig for these little boys! people tell me to hang in there god is with you,really? cuz the way things are going i,ll be saying hello to this god who say,s he loves us! i have always had health issues since i was a little girl,why then when i ask for help don,t i get it? cuz all i think right now is that i,ve done something wrong to be dealt this crap in my life yes i know there are people worse off than me why then can,t i go thru one whole year without spending half my life in the dammed hospital! i have had enough!

callum came to see me tonight i didn,t say alot cuz i,ve lost yet another tooth,i am embarressed to open my mouth to talk cuz i look like a bloody witch! i was ok til i came in this dump they call a hospital,my teeth were intact until the moron who put me out got a hold of me,to have a surgery and come back minus several teeth! and then when i complain i,m told it,ll take upto one to two years before they consider paying for my dental teatment what a joke! it isn,t enough that i,ve lost several teeth i now have to try to find 198 pounds to get dentures but i can,t even have the impressions until i give a 50 pound deposit,how the hell can i find that amount of money? especally since he moved out great isn,t it,i,ve done nothing wrong yet i, feel i,m the one being punished for all this crap going on in my life! will someone please tell me?

I,m not gonna bore you with anymore of my moaning so i,ll say bye for now and all i ask is that maybe just maybe some luck may come my way but i doubt it why change the way things are? why bother trying to do things for others who only leech of you,it,s funny times like this it,s when you know who your real friends are,i usede to pray every night and ask god to help those who are not lucky enough to have a decent life,i used to ask him to watch over all those i love,now? well i,m not gonna pray anymore cuz the big man doesn,t listen.