archangels's Journal

My mum had her lumps removed from her breast today and never again  do i or my nan wanna hear my mum scream like she did! the doc who knock,s you out for surgery came and asked mum if she wanted the surgery done under local or did she wanna be knocked out,so mum being mum say,s nope i,ll just have local [cuz she was hoping they,d let her go home today!] well mum was wheeled down to have the lump,s removed they put the local in and everything seemed all right until me and my nan heard my mum scream! i was ready to break the theatre door down  to help my mum,my nan grabbed hold of me and told me to leave it,well it turned out that mum was numb in the breast they got the first duct out with no problem but when he got the big leasion he had a problem and that is when me and my nan heard my mum scream her head off then it went quiet all in all we had to wait 2+hrs the surgeon was really nice he explained that he had removed four ducts from my mum,s right breast he explained everything seemed to be going ok until it came to take the second duct he explained it had a big leesion on it he then went on to explain that he removed a further two ducts,then he hit us with the news that it is definatly breast cancer and it may be alot worse than what he at first thought he explained that all the samples were being sent to london and we now have to wait for the results to find out what treatment she will need other than the radiotherapy, mum isn,t stupid she knew straight away that there was something wrong the doc sat down with me and my nan and explained what was going on mum just looked at him and very dryly said well i didn,t do a very good job of killing myself so i might as well fight the bugger! HELLO MUM!!! thank  god she,s back! i can,t deny she worrys me,i also told her that i contacted our local tabloid,s and they are hopefully gonna run a story on  my mum and the way she has been badly treated by the people who should be helping her! i don,t blame the nursing staff but i do blame the doctor who first told her about the painpump then very bluntly let her down,if he knew he couldn,t fit this pump! i aim to start up a support  group in this area and hopefully start some awareness  of what it,s like to live with a loved one who suffers with acute chronic pain,i am also going to be lobbying our local m.p in the hope that maybe our goverment can get off there big fat lazy bum,s and actually ackowledge there are alot of people who live in this world with acute chronic pain and who deserve  more help than there getting also they need to put more money into our health service to help fund more pain clinic,s without people like my mum having to travel a long way to see yet another doctor who is willing to do the surgery,only to be turned down cuz she can,t get her local pain doctor to do the refill,s,my mum has tried to kill herself because she is so desperate,my mother is not a weak willed woman but to see her crying her heart out through frustration and anger caused by acute chronic pain isn,t very nice it,s about time this country woke up and realise,s there are alot of people who suffer terrible pain but are limited on what kind of treatment they are allowed it,s wrong. well i gotta go now cuz mum,s not feeling too great thank you all who have left messages of support i will do my best to keep you all informed on how mum,s doing callum