archangels's Journal

Well here we go yet again another crappy day in another crappy world,yet more bad luck yet more hell and then people start telling me about god,HA! don,t make me laugh where,s god when you need him? where,s god when all around you is heartache and hell? answer NOWHERE so please don,t tell me to have faith cuz right now i really could,nt care less wether i live or die! i am fed up with people telling me god loves me! really? if that,s the truth where the hell is he when i,m in need? answer nowhere! i,ve come to the conclusion that god doesn,t give a rat,s behind about me anyway! how can you love someone and make there live,s a living hell?

In a nutshell i have had enough of being lied to by so called doctor,s i have had enough of this godforsaken world! why bother? what,s the point? where is my god when i needed him? NO WHERE! i thought i believed in angel,s now? well now i,m not so sure maybe i was hoping that maybe just maybe my life would have some meaning,what a joke! so please don,t tell me god loves me unless you have proof cuz right now my faith is outta the window,i don,t wanna be here anymore yet i,m too much of a bloody coward to end my life so i,ll just stop treatment that way i can just leave to nowhere i guess,because if there,s a god why allow all this pain and heartache in my sad little exsistance? right now i guess you could say i,ve had a gutfull!

I just hope my son has a better life than this,oh but hold on now we have kid,s killing kid,s for what? for nothing! am i angry you are darn straight i,m angry! what a joke this hell called life is!