archangels's Journal

Hi folk,s,first let me say how sorry i am at not having the time to put a little message in to let you all know what,s going on,firstly my son is not having a great time of it,it would seem his kidneys are not functioning properly and since being discharged from hospital he has continued to ignore the doctor,s by not taking his med,s,which is really frustrating me as i know all too well what will happen if he continues to ignore the doctor,s [dialysis!] i came back from the hospital today to inform my son that he has an appointment with our g.p on thursday,to which he told me,"no i,m not!" so i have just told him to get on with it cuz if he wants to kill himself that,s fine by me cuz no one can say i didn,t try! trouble is i do care and i don,t want my son going through the hell of renal failure and dialysis,cuz it ain,t no bus ride!i love him with all my heart and soul yet i can,t help him so if he choose,s to ignore the doctor,s what else can i do?

I,m totally shattered i have just finished yet one more chemo cycle and it has took alot outta me,i keep mudderling on in the hope that i,m one day nearer to getting rid of this crap thats growing insider me,sadly it seem,s i may have a small spread,so i,ve got to have yet more test,s scan,s etc,and hopefully we,ll have got the bugger! i,m still having regular dialysis and i must admit it makes me feel so very tired and i get a bad headache,you,d think my son would see what dialysis doe,s to me and that would shock him into taking his med,s but still no such luck!

I would like to thank you all for your continued support and all the prayers and i too keep you all in my prayer,s i will also get back to each and every one of you,so please just bear with me a little while longer,hopefully my son will get his act together and sort himself out,fingers crossed in the meantime take care and godbless you all.Shaz x