Journal Entry for July 5, 2009
Right now i,m knackered kit,s been a very very long day,mum has had all sorts done to her,she is very yellow ,looking and she is now also under the …
I am 46+ i have kidney cancer and am awaiting more surgery to remove my kidney, i am very careful who i meet i was raped and left for dead by several people who kept me there for 72+ hours, i almost died as a result of it. I no longer allow any junkies near me, sorry but i do not want to reminded of what happened to me and i make no apology, s for being the way i am i also believe they chose to take drugs so they chose to rape sodamise and beat me up and leave me half dead.
I am 46+ i have kidney cancer and am awaiting more surgery to remove my kidney, i am very careful who i meet i was raped and left for dead by several people who kept me there for 72+ hours, i almost died as a result of it. I no longer allow any junkies near me, sorry but i do not want to reminded of what happened to me and i make no apology, s for being the way i am i also believe they chose to take drugs so they chose to rape sodamise and beat me up and leave me half dead.
I love making thing, s i, m kinda new to making my own cards!! i, m hopeless at it but i, ll keep trying til i get it right??one thing i do not do is forward any kinda chain mail so please do not send me any chain mail because i will not forward any of them
I love making thing, s i, m kinda new to making my own cards!! i, m hopeless at it but i, ll keep trying
10 hugs received, 4 hugs given, 3 journal posts, 1 group discussion post, 1 advice post
archangels wrote a journal entry: Journal Entry for July 5, 2009 7:30pm
Right now i,m knackered kit,s been a very very long day,mum has had all sorts done to her,she is very…
archangels asked for advice: How much more before i call this life a day? in the Depression support group 4:44am
For over 17yrs now i have had to live with severe acute chronic pain,i have been on all sort,s of meds…
archangels wrote a journal entry: Journal Entry for July 4, 2009 7:54pm
Things here are pretty dier and i am terrified i may lose my mum all because some idiot promised her…
archangels gave TwilightAngel a ray of sunshine 6:24pm
Happy birthday Twilight!!! I am getting some pictures together of me and mum,i,m pretty hot at da mo…
archangels wrote a journal entry: Journal Entry for July 3, 2009 8:50pm
It is just coming upto 1am and i,m sat here wondering what the hell is going on with my mum! for those…
Right now i,m knackered kit,s been a very very long day,mum has had all sorts done to her,she is very yellow ,looking and she is now also under the …
Things here are pretty dier and i am terrified i may lose my mum all because some idiot promised her something he couldn,t do! i have been with my …
It is just coming upto 1am and i,m sat here wondering what the hell is going on with my mum! for those of you who don,t know, my mum has been in …
It is now 2hrs to go then mum,s court order will cease which will mean that technally she can sign herself out of hospital again and tell em where to …
It,s now 1.15am and i am sitting here beside my mum,for those of you who don,t know my mum has been very very badly let down by the very person …
I feel lost... and trapped and i miss my bf... his name is Nick... He doesn't come on here much anymore, but neither do I really... I just need someone to talk to atm... I feel alone and my parents don't understand... They told me I don't know what love is... Or at least i shouldn't told me I'm too young... Im 18 and I love Nick and they can't change it... I hate it here.... sigh.... Miss you... Tell your mum I say hi... xxoxoxx Many hugs... xxoxoxx Love Twilight
Hope you all feel better soon... Love from Twilight and blessing upon you all... Hope you all feel better soon... Love you all... xxxoxoxxx
Hey Cal... I miss other Cal too... But how are you? How is your mum... and everyone else... I miss hearing from you... Guess things have been pretty horrid... It's my 18th bday today... Went to the casino but didn't win much.... Guess i wish my bf could have been wrapped up and sent to me... Met him through DS... lives in UK... :( Hope to hear from you soon... Miss you all... Had fun talking and please let me know about the pics... and the Cals journal... xxxxx
hey hunny hang in there ok. im good. will reply to your pm when get back in from taking kids to school. xxxxx
saying a prayer for you
I have lost my sister in tragic circumstances,i also lost my baby boy and i am now on a transplant list waiting for a new kidney,i lost my sister some time ago but even now i could tell you what i was wearing the day she died,i also lost my baby boy who decided he wanted to be born before his time,i miss him so very very much,i still cry talking about it,i think this is normal,or so i,m told,i take flower,s to him every week and i thank god for giving him to me,i also lost a good friend Maria
I had a stone in my left kidney when i was 9years old,i had the surgery to remove the stone which thankfully they removed the thing and saved the kidney,sadly i ended up with none stop kidney infection,s which meant alot of time off school and work,i continued to work as i feel to keep your mind busy takes your mind from the pain,sadly i ended up losing the kidney anyway!! sadly it didn,t stop there i now have renal cancer
although i am 46 i still have daily battles with food,my mind say,s yes my body says NO! i have suffered with builimia since i was in my late twenty,s,every day is now a struggle with food,i hate myself for what i do.
I was involved in an accident,because for some reason some person thought they could run a red light, sadly he hit me, as a direct result of him doing that to me i had to be cut out of our car,with severe neck and back injurys,i live constantly in a battle with myself,as i try not to think of the pain,i am on constant morphine which help,s sadly not much.
I have had back problems for almost 34yr,s now sadly you name it i have tried it,but to no avail,i have had so many nerve block,s and lord knows how many other treatment,s that sadly have not worked in my case.
I had a total hysterectomy when i was 27yr,s and i now have reguler hormone implants,
I was raped and beaten and left for dead when i was 14yr,s i went to hell and back,i was made to think it was my fault! all i did was to try to give them direction,s when they dragged me into there car i was held for over 73hr,s i,m still trying to deal with it,my husband know,s i was raped but i can,t tell him how bad it was,as a result i self harmed until 4yr,s ago i still have the urge to cut myself when i can,t cope i have now started to cut again
i have self harmed for a number of years now,when my phsical as well as mental pain gets too much i cut myself or i burn myself,i feel it is my fault all the things that have happened to me,i know in my heart it,s not my fault i was raped i know it,s not my fault i live with chronic pain everyday i just take myself away from whats happened to me
Ever since i can remember [my husband said it started when i was in my accident]i am a very very bad sleeper,i am constantly finding anything there is to help me sleep,i am always tired and i,m lucky if i sleep more than two hour,s a night.
I first had a D.V.T when i was 17yr,s i was put on a heprin drip then onto warfren,i was told i,d be fine,I had yet another d.v.t when i was 23yr,s after a minor operation,back onto the same treatment!! thought that was it,took it for granted that was the end,No such luck! i had my last d.v.t 2003 i thought it was a bad gnat bite,WRONG!!! yet another d.v.t! so now i take each day as it comes and whenever i go into hospital i let them know about my d.v.t,s i no longer take them for granted.
I have suffered with depression for most of my life it was made worse when my sister and my babies died,i get so bad i just don,t wanna live anymore,i know that selfish but i just have no real motivation anymore,my son is grown now and i just don,t know why i,m still here.
I very stupidly brought myself several item,s of jewellery and ended up with 6 accounts,i contacted the debt agency,s who were involved with getting these debts paid like an idiot i tried to ignore the bill,s which had to be paid in the end one of the companys dealing with my debts have now told me they are going to take me to court and i am terrified of my husband finding out because he will divorce me,i,m at my wit,s end and don,t know what to do help me please?
I have had kidney problems since i was a child,now i find at my last scan that i have a tumour in my only kidney,i can,t deny i,m scared as i have already lost my other kidney,i am due to go into hospital tomorrow for they hope a partial nephectomy i have already been told by my surgeon that they may have to remove all of the kidney,i have also found out the reason they removed my bladder last year was because my bladder had pre cancerous cell,s! i wasent told!
My bladder has never worked when i was a child i was classed as lazy,therefore in the eyes of the doctor there was nothing wrong with me,but i was born without the muscles which help you to empty your bladder!
i was diagnosed with bladder cancer in june this year stage three,i have also had a nephrectomy,[i only had one kidney as i had the other kidney removed due to stones and cancer]i,ve had a full bladder removel and now i,m on dialysis now due to complete failure during my surgery.
After 25yrs together my husband has told me he is moving out in january,he told me he lobves me but he,s not in love with me
for over two week,s now i have had severe constant pain beneath the middle of my stomach[just under the middle of the sternum,] for two week,s now i cannot eat everytime i try i am either left with waves of severe pain [not like the pain you get when you need the loo]i have noted i have a swelling just beneath my sternum it is about the size of an orange i don,t know what this is and was wondering if anyone can relate? or help me? i,m taking morphine for the pain it really is that bad!
For the past two week,s i have had severe pain by my sternum and i,m finding it very hard to eat,i keep getting like a throbbing ache for about a minute and this is tseadly getting worse,i am already on morphine and even that isn,t killing or numbing the pain,do you think this may be a hiatal hernia,please help i,m in alot of discomfort i am on nexium but it,s not helping me i would welcome any advice right now
i,m not sure if i have one of these last year i had my bladder removed and my doctor told me i may ger a hernia please can anyone help me? i have a swelling just under breastbone and everytime i eat i,m either sick or i just can,t eat do i have a hernia please help?