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pepperg7 
i am so angry. i hate all of this. group, meetings, thinking, feeling. i am miserable. i should be grateful for these programs and help out there, but im not. im mad i have to do it. i went to a meeting last night and was thinking, everyone there is like oh ive never been happier and enjoyed life so much till i came to aa. umm... i was looking around the room and nobody smiles. everyone is so serious all the time. i hate it. this is where my cult thinking comes in, why i didnt keep coming back before. it seems like theyre made to believe theyre happy, but they arent. then, if u dont keep coming back forever, you can never be happy and youll never make it. ive never been more unhappy. wtf?!
